tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68854292011-04-22T08:15:42.056+08:00try to figure out myself! Heehee...tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comBlogger1921100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1128442005915708652005-10-05T00:06:00.000+08:002005-10-05T00:06:45.923+08:00hi~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-112844200591570865?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1115916174788660232005-05-13T00:36:00.000+08:002005-05-13T00:42:54.866+08:00[[ half in l0ve? ]]<br /><br /><br />mE and da ben zhu 3 mths le! heex.. unxpected zh0ng de unxpected.. c0x the previ0us 2 din manage t0 last s0 l0ng.. actually n0t l0ng 0so lahx.. hahx.. mb 0k0k 0nli? hahx.. anyway, went 0ut t0dae wif him and met relia and tingx.. heex.. s0o0o0o hapi t0 c tingx!! cum back le naber tell me de.. hai me miz u s0o0o0o muchie~ hahx..<br /><br /><br />and tt tupid da ben zhu early in the m0rning 0readi make me angry lia0x.. every mth mux make me angry 0nce den hapi de lehx.. hahx.. den sh0p sh0p half wae s0me pr0s p0pped up but s0lved lahx.. den b0ught a l0t 0f things~ sh0es arx, cl0thes arx, nail p0lish and l0tsa l0tsa m0re~ hahx.. but 0so waste a l0t 0f m0ney lahx.. hahx.. hmmm.. h0pe can stay peaceful and fine wif da ben zhu lahx.. k lahx.. end here.. and btw, c0ach carter is a reali nice sh0w.. alm0st cried while watching and hse 0f wax sux!!! damn damn damn disgusting l0rx.. the 1st m0vie tt i've watch tt i wanted to leave the cinema s0 badly after watching half-wae.. damn disgusting.. i reali feel like v0mitting after watching.. k lahx.. reali end here le.. take care.. =B<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-111591617478866023?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1115915769148520872005-05-13T00:29:00.000+08:002005-05-13T00:36:09.156+08:00Message: Message: If u are a girl put X's in the little boxes [ ] that are the things you like guys to do.If you are a guy then put X's on the guyportion...<br /><br /><br /><br />Guys::Do you like girls to...<br />[ ] Hold your hand?<br />[ ] Play with your hair?<br />[ ] Hit you playfully?<br />[ ] Kiss you?<br />[ ] Jump on your back?<br />[ ] Give u pictures of the 2 of u together?<br />[ ] Flirt with you?<br />[ ] Use you as a pillow?<br />[ ] Say they love you?<br />[ ] Make the first move?<br />[ ] Tell all their friends about you?<br />[ ] Get jealous?<br />[ ] Don't want to do stuff in front of otherpeople?<br />[ ] Give you gifts?<br />[ ] Make you gifts?<br />[ ] Do stuff with their friends instead of yousometimes?<br />[ ] Slap your ass<br />[ ] Go out of their way to make you smile?<br />[ ] Understand the bond between you andyour friends?<br />[ ] Style your hair for you?<br />[ ] Look into your eyes?<br />[ ] Invite you to be with their family?<br />[ ] Ask you out instead of you asking themout?<br />[ ] Call you?<br />[ ] Leave you cute little notes?<br />[ ] Wear sweats and eat junk food in front of you?<br />[ ] Nibble on your ears?<br />[ ] Grabs your beer and opens it for you<br />[ ] Take showers with you?<br />[ ] Slow dance with you even though there isn't any music?<br />[ ] Cuddle at night when the two of yousleeping?<br />[ ] Kisses you on the back of the neck?<br />[ ] Grabs your package in public<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Girls::Do you like it when guys...<br />[x] Give you gifts? <><br />[x] Make u gifts?<br />[x] Understand the bond between u & your friends?<br />[x] Sneak up behind u just to hold u?<br />[ ] Tell his friends all about you?<br />[x] Buy you flowers?<br />[ ] Take you to the movies?<br />[ ] Open doors for you?<br />[x] Invite you to be with their family?<br />[x] Hold u in their arms as long as theycan?<br />[ ] Hold your hand?<br />[x] Make the first move?<br />[x] Do random corny romantic things?<br />[x] Get jealous? <><br />[ ] Smile at you and say "it's just because you're beautiful"?<br />[ ] Give you compliments?<br />[ ] Write you a poem?<br />[x] Find cute way to ask u to go places?<br />[x] Give you a hug?<br />[ ] Beg you to do something you already don't want to do?<br />[x] Ask u if you're comfortable doing something?<br />[ ] Look into your eyes?<br />[x] Call you? <><br />[ ] Jokingly wrestle you?<br />[x] Make you laugh?<br />[x] Write you a song?<br />[ ] Sing for you?<br />[x] Say he love you?<br />[ ] Act differently with u in front of their friends?<br />[x] Kiss your forehead?<br />[x] Wrap their arms around your waist?<br />[ ] Play with your hair?<br />[x] Ask you to a dance?<br />[x] Pay for you, especially on a date <><br />[x] Kiss you when you least expect it.<br />[ ] Over react for stupid things that happen<br />[ ] Bring up the past<br />[ ] Plan for our future<br />[x] Apologise after an argument <><br />[x] Concern you?<br />[x] Understands you?<br />[ ] Be Busy 24-7?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />`` cherish every m0ment c0x u dunn0e wat will happen in the next sec0nd. =B ``<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-111591576914852087?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1114967212199168742005-05-02T00:49:00.000+08:002005-05-02T01:06:52.200+08:00[[ tired. ]]<br /><br /><br />habing a tupid terrible headace n0w.. dunn0e y 0so w0rk half wae suddenly headace. and mind u it hurtx k. cant reali take it s0 went hm t0 rest. b0ught a n0n-stick p0t f0r mama as a m0ther's dae present c0x she 0waes sae she wanted a n0n-stick p0t all these. wh0le dae m0od n0t gd. dunn0e y. c0x 0f a bitch? think s0. but hu cares. i cant d0 much 0so. me n0 ritex t0 c0ntr0l 0r wat u c. dinner ate wif a pen pr0m0ter. at LEAST i g0t sum0ne t0 eat wif. n0t b0red anym0re. wat m0re can i sae? wei ting came t0 find me f0r handbag. pei a while den left. me al0ne again. 3 daes 0f st0rewide salex might me alm0st g0 crazy i tell u. s'p0reans are g0d damn kiasu l0rx. mini-ip0d, hp, x-b0x at 48 and they rushing like hell t0 get them. crazy ritex? guess s0. s0ld ard 3ooo plus 0f thingx in these 3 daes. salex ma. cant help. n0t bad, these mth's c0mmissi0n quite many.<br /><br /><br />gettin m0re and m0re sick 0f life. hate bitchex and bastardx. dunn0 y they are being b0rn int0 tis w0rld. esp. Y0U tis BITCH. hate u. anyway she cant even c my bl0g. hu cares if i sc0ld her FUCK Y0U ritex? damn it. if 0nly i can sc0ld fuck in fr0nt 0f her. tt will be g0d damn nice. i mean it. u sux. fuck 0ff fr0m my life. at least f0r n0w. n0 m0od at all. everything sp0ilt by u. pr0mises are meant t0 be br0ken and tt's wat i believe. dun make pr0mises if u cant pr0mise. fine. i 0so dunn0e wat im talking. jux s0me fucking shit i guess? and jux like tis sentence fr0m a s0ng, [[ fuck it i dun wan u back. ]]<br /><br /><br />end.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-111496721219916874?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1114880907823405352005-05-01T01:03:00.000+08:002005-05-01T01:08:27.823+08:00[[ sucking feeling. ]]<br /><br /><br />i sucks and I SUCKX!!!! haix.. dunn0e lahx.. everything sux in the w0rld. wat the fuck. hidin is a crime. and i HATE hiding! fuck this fucking w0rld t0 b0rn me int0 tis w0rld. i hate my life and i hate my EVERYTHING. im g0nna learn fr0m u. dun blame me f0r tt. im s0wie and tt's my attitude. at least f0r n0w. s0 fuck 0ff fr0m my w0rld. thx a l0t.<br /><br /><br />__ shitsh stuffs and shitish pple. tt's wat i learn. __<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-111488090782340535?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1114709071550126322005-04-29T01:10:00.000+08:002005-04-29T01:24:31.553+08:00[[ l0ve in the air ]]<br /><br /><br />heex.. t0dae went 0ut wif da ben zhu.. finally get t0 c him after 5 daes.. 5 daes u n0e.. tt was like g0d damn l0ng l0rx.. miz him damn much siax.. can 0nly listen t0 his v0ice everydae but cann0t c him.. haix.. but nbm, 0ur t0ugh life will be 0ver s0on c0x the sengkang fair g0ing t0 finish l0rx! heex.. k lahx.. went d0wn t0 ps and b0ught m0vie ticket den went d0wn to far east all tt t0 sh0p l0rx.. hahx.. b0ught a shirt but dun like it after i buy.. anyway cant help.. p0ly g0tta wear shirts quite 0ften s0 g0tta get m0re shirts b4 p0ly starts.. hahx.. finally sh0w starts den sh0w ends.. went d0wn t0 bugis planning t0 buy stickers f0r manicure.. but realised im reali damn g0d lazy s0 decided n0t t0 buy any~ might as well g0 let 0thers d0 manicure f0r me rather den wasting m0ney buying all these.. s0me m0re nid t0 ch0ose th0se stickers design which i dread the m0st.. hahx.. making decision makes me headace siax.. hahx..<br /><br /><br />walk walk walk den ard 8+ 9 went hm le.. reali enj0y his c0mpany siax.. im naber b0red wif him ard.. heex.. tt's y i lub him s0 muchie~ heex.. but den da ben zhu getting more and more mischevious le huh.. i pinch u hard hard den u n0e arx.. heex.. dun bring u 0ut g0 play play den u n0e arx.. wait me sad sad i dun wan u le den u n0e arx.. hahx.. anyway u reali t0lerate me a l0t le lahx.. t0dae like tis kick u, pinch u and hit u u 0so n0 sae anything.. s0wie if i reali hurt u lehx.. dun mean it de.. jux playing wif u niax.. heex.. at most nextt time let u hit 0r watever lahx.. but den h0rx dun blame me if i hit u more den ever~ hahx.. k lahx.. end here.. tml g0tta be beri beri bz lia0x.. n0t only tml lahx.. sat and sun 0so.. metr0 st0rewide sales.. will be a tiring dae.. hahx.. take care arx guys..<br /><br /><br />`` miz my da ben zhu~ l0ve ya and miz ya l0tsa l0tsa. muackx~ =B ``<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-111470907155012632?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1114361244847206102005-04-25T00:22:00.000+08:002005-04-25T00:47:24.850+08:00[[ d0ubtx all the wae? ]]<br /><br /><br />y0o h0o~ back blogging le.. com ok le.. everything ok le.. can use com and internet again.. hahx.. hmmm.. life's ok recently.. got a job everything's ok.. but my love life? i think im still not able to overcome my barrier ba.. those fearx, th0se hurtful xperience.. th0se unf0rgettable mem0ries and th0se d0ubtx i hab n0w.. haix.. i hate pple tt lie.. and yet, pple lie to me.. y cant pple be true to me or to themself.. at least let me noe.. haix.. anyway its my fault.. im a petty ger wif a small evil bad mind.. getting angry over trival matters is the only thing i noe how to do.. are u so sure there's no other better ger there for u to love them? i dunnoe y i still think im not worth ur love.. i realised i still cant forget the past and move on.. im tired and scare of it.. i dun dare to hope or believe in anybody anymore.. can i trust u? if can tell me how will u? its reali doubts all the way.. i dunnoe whether to trust u not since we are not working together nemore.. can we reali last like wat u wan? do u reali love me like wat u told me? haix.. dunnoe lahx.. i scare the cutting of hand habit will slowly come back again.. mb the past still suits me the best? haix.. dunnoe lahx.. i did so much and i hope im not going to get hurt as a reward for me.. i hab had enuff or hurtx.. if hurtx is wat u r going to gif me, i guess parting will will be the only choice left for both of us.. haix.. dun tok le lahx.. dun even noe will he ever c not.. suan le.. all in all i still think im the bad ger doing all the bad thingx.. haix.. take care lahx.. tata.. nitex..<br /><br /><br />-- single life can be an alternate ch0ice.. --<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-111436124484720610?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1109650994190146152005-03-01T02:12:00.000+08:002005-03-01T12:23:14.190+08:00[[ y0o h0o ~!]]<br /><br /><br />surprised i finally can bl0g le ritex ? hahx.. n0w t pple's hse bl0gging lia0x.. hMmm.. l0ng l0ng time n0 time bl0g lia0x finally g0t chance t0 bl0g lia0x.. heex.. hMmm.. yesterdae g0t back the results.. did badly f0r tt.. haix.. dunn0e can g0 which c0urse lia0x.. haix.. hMmm.. recently life quite 0k lahx.. get t0 n0e many pple and br0aden my circle 0f frenx.. heex.. 1 m0re pers0n in my life le.. hahx.. dunn0e will last l0ng n0t but still enj0y the time n0w ba.. din regret my decisi0n and will try my best t0 gif him happiness ba.. heex..<br /><br /><br />last tues was mhy b'dae.. heex.. hab an enjoyable dae and the dae b4.. l0ve wend and xia0 hui l0tsa ! they gave me a billab0ng de bag which reali did surprised me lehx.. heex.. den they bought me cakes and we celebrate my birthdae at tampines de cafe cartel.. damn it l0rx the service there damn sux l0rx.. wa piang ehx.. if can c0mplain i sure c0mplain de l0rx.. den next dae we cashier g0t chalet.. heex.. pretty enj0y the chalet lahx.. hahx.. they 0so b0ught cake f0r me.. heex.. reali enj0y tt dae.. m0st mem0rable dae 0f my 17 yrs 0f life.. heex.. thx weNd and xh ehx ? l0ve u 2 l0tsa ! mUacKx !<br /><br /><br />g0ing t0 w0rk s0on le s0 guess g0nna st0p here le ba.. heex.. next time g0t chance den bl0g le l0rx.. k lahx.. take care arx u guyx ! l0ve u guyx l0tsa ! miz u aLL l0tsa t0o ! mUaCkx !<br /><br /><br />-- 12.24 -- my f0reva ? =B<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-110965099419014615?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1103184934572756812004-12-16T17:16:00.000+08:002004-12-16T16:15:34.573+08:00\\ bi pi ba b0o !! // <br /> <br /> <br />heex.. l0ng l0ng naber update my bl0g lia0x l0rx.. hahx.. wat t0 d0 ? c0m sp0ilt s0 cann0t use le l0rx.. hMmm.. everything still the same l0rx.. since the dae my chalet ended, went t0 w0rk at metr0 as cashier.. n0t bad lahx.. quite free de.. n0e y ? c0x n0 business ma ! hahx.. * bad bad ! * hahx.. hMmm.. n0e l0tsa new frenx.. enj0ying life n0w.. g0t a l0t 0f funni st0ry w0rking there man.. hahx.. and im being called a auntie by b0th 0ld auntie and small children lehx ! me so auntie mehx ? hahx.. but wat t0 d0 ? hahx.. call l0rx.. i oso cann0t d0 anything le ma.. hahx.. hMmm.. he called me on m0n.. wat shld i sae ? frenx n0w ba.. chat f0r nearly 1 hr b4 he hang up.. surprised yet delighted.. hahx.. hMmm.. realised s0mething.. but i reali dunn0e whether is it fair 0r n0t.. dun dare t0 face all th0se things yet.. haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />t0o mani thingx happening n0w le.. cant reali s0rt 0ut my feelings man.. haix.. i rather all these things naber happen.. l0nging f0r my simple life n0w.. haix.. w0rk there f0r 2 weeks le.. enj0y the envir0nment there ba.. quite nice.. hahx.. esp. t0ys department man.. hahx.. can w0rk and play t0gether.. hahx.. the t0ys there 0so quite cute de l0rx.. heex.. hMmm.. g0t nice-lo0king guys there 0so lahx.. but den think g0t stead le ba.. *sad* hahx.. hMmm.. suddenly miss my sch lehx.. hahx.. miss the time we study and play t0gether in 0ur class.. miss all th0se fun daes man.. haix.. my heart is s0 ruan n0w.. haix.. h0pe everything turns 0ut t0 be nth but craps ba.. i 0readi hab enuff all these things in the past 1/2 yrs liaox.. haix.. k lahx.. st0p here le lahx.. n0w at hui san hse bl0gging 0ne.. hahx.. dunn0e when can bl0g again lia0x.. hahx.. k lahx.. miss u guys l0tsa.. hahx.. h0pe can g0 0ut again in future w0rx ~ tata ! =B <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 16.14 __* -- haix.. can u leave me and my heart ? -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-110318493457275681?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1101700819343790212004-11-29T05:16:00.000+08:002004-11-29T12:00:19.343+08:00\\ y0o h0o ~ // <br /> <br /> <br />heex.. s0wie arx.. s0 l0ng naber bl0g lia0x.. hahx.. c0x c0m sp0ilt haber 0k arx.. n0w in pple's hse updating.. heex.. hmmm.. last week was 0ur klass chalet w0rx ~ heex.. was reali habing a l0t 0f fun man.. bbq the 1st nite and zhi jia and wils0n g0t cum lehx.. heex.. s0 happi.. heex.. den went f0r nite cycling.. my g0d l0rx.. was s0 fun but tiring 0so lahx.. hahx.. cycle till my butt damn pain l0rx.. hahx.. but nbm lahx.. quite w0rth it lahx.. c0x dun even n0e when will hab an0ther chance t0 hab an0ther klass chalet le.. hahx.. 0k.. den sec0nd dae went escape !! hahx.. finally g0t a chance t0 g0 lia0x lehx.. heex.. play till we gerx alm0st kee siaox arx.. play th0se games dun even n0e play till h0w many times man.. esp. the rainb0w machine arx.. hahx.. dunn0e play till h0w mani timex lia0x.. hahx.. den at nitex, t0k t0k play play den jiu g0 slp slp lia0x.. hahx.. miss th0se preci0us m0ments man.. when will we hab it again lehx ? haix.. den next dae m0rning, early m0rning kanna wake up by wend and shanna.. c0x they dun wan let me slp m0re ! hmph !! bad h0rx they all ? hahx.. i slp till i dunn0e even n0e its 0readi 11++ le l0rx.. hahx.. den jiu g0 hm and slp till 6++.. hahx.. think i quite pr0 bax.. hahx.. <br /> <br /> <br />n0w, i wanna clarify thingx lia0x.. l0st mine and v0n's wallet 0n the sec0nd dae.. i dun care is hu st0le it but i swear me and v0n is inn0cent k ? theif is after all a thief.. n0 matter h0w u deny the fact is still there.. fine, blame pple f0r all u can ! w0 wen xin wu kui.. and f0r ur inf0rmati0n, my wallet is kanna st0len 0so k ? i din even g0 d0wn t0 c0mplain anything 0k ? and u hab the cheek t0 push all the blames t0 0therx. n0t 0nly u are the 0ne hu l0st ur thingx 0k ? WE TOO LOST OUR THINGX K ? fucking irritating idi0ts.. u pray hard i dunn0e hu's the culprit behind this.. if its an 0utsider, fine, i cant d0 anything n0w.. but if its an insider, i dun care by h0ok 0r by cr0ok, i will take my revenge.. h0pe u r guilty-stricken by n0w.. fuck the pers0n hu d0 all these thingx.. YOU SUX !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <br /> <br /> <br />den was fri, went watch shutter.. hahx.. a nice m0vie indeed.. hahx.. scary yet sad.. hahx.. kanna scare by tt tupid weiting arx !! u sux ~~ hahx.. hmmm.. 0verall the m0vie n0t bad lahx.. hahx.. w0rth watching.. hahx.. hmmm.. this week g0 w0rk lia0x.. hahx.. qi dai 0r wat ? hahx.. dunn0e lahx.. h0pe my w0rk wun be a mess man.. hahx.. k lahx.. end here bax.. g0t chance 0r my c0m 0k le den i cum update again l0rx.. heex.. take care.. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 12.o6 __* -- a new life ? -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-110170081934379021?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1100435329226927402004-11-14T17:16:00.000+08:002004-11-14T20:28:49.226+08:00\\ haix..// <br /> <br /> <br />hMmm.. wat shld i sae lehx.. actually i g0t nth t0 sae.. izzit p.m.s 0r was is f0r real ? haix.. watever.. t0dae tuiti0n den g0 meet tingx and weiting den planning t0 study but end up in suntec playing ddr.. hahx.. *guilty-stricken* hahx.. but wat t0 d0 ? 0nli ddr can let me f0rget b0ut everything.. hahx.. can let me vent my anger.. but still 0n myself.. g0t inflict pain 0nt0 my b0dy ma.. hahx.. wat t0 d0 ? haix.. den g0 study but end up me and tingx t0k t0k t0k and still.... t0k.. hahx.. gerx ma.. cann0t help.. hahx.. den weiting cann0t stand lia0x den g0 haig rd take her vcd den we g0 hm le.. and n0w, im here bl0gging silly stuffs and n0t studying.. hahx.. perharps like wat tt bird had said, im a p0tential-retaineer.. s0 mb, im g0nna retain and fail my 0s next yr.. hahx.. tt's wat they called destiny bax.. hahx.. haix.. kill me bax.. im such a sucker.. dun understand y i sux s0 much.. haix.. k lahx.. st0p bl0gging here le bax.. haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />.7. 4 m0re papers t0 g0 and yet im still slacking ? hahx.. wat t0 d0 ? tt's me.. failing.. .7. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.32 __* -- kill me slowly -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-110043532922692740?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1100338289046122242004-11-13T17:16:00.000+08:002004-11-13T17:31:29.046+08:00\\ *s0bx s0bx s0bx* // <br /> <br /> <br />haix.. jux finish watching the l0ve c0ntract, ai qing he yue.. cried n0n-st0p.. dunn0e y feel s0 sad.. n0t c0x 0f him but jux feel sad f0r tt sh0w.. haix.. the guy l0ve the ger s0 muchie yet she became paralysed and d0ubt b0ut the guy's feelings f0r her.. haix.. in the end, the guy did n0t wan t0 be separated fr0m the ger s0 the guy c0mmitted suicide wif her.. sad h0rx ? haix.. but still g0t 0ther endings lahx.. pple g0 watch den will n0e lia0x.. hahx.. haix.. if 0nli there's such a guy appearing in my life.. i dun ask f0r m0re.. but jux gif me a guy wh0 truly l0ves me.. haix.. ai qing shi mei y0u he yue de.. izzit true? ke shi, ai qing y0ng yuan ch0ng man le shang t0ng.. all th0se hurts.. haix.. ai yi ge ren jiu shi ai yi ge ren.. shi bu xu ya0 ren he he yue de.. d0es true l0ve reali exist in this w0rld? can l0ve be trusted? can it reali be trusted? haix.............. <br /> <br /> <br />yesterdae went study wif tings and weiting.. end up g0 play bball again.. haix.. s0wie arx tingx.. leave u t0 g0 hm al0ne.. sowie arx.. yesterdae din turn 0ut reali tt gd.. in mac, accidentally h0ld his hand.. dunn0e y feel s0 fan gan.. den i jus dun dare t0 let him take my bag.. wats happening t0 me? isnt it me hu wan t0 be frenx again wif him? den y am i reacting like tt? haix.. but dun care le.. 0ver le lahx.. WAKE UP! haix.. tt sh0w.. sh0 t0uching.. if it was mine, i reali dun mind watching it f0r the 2nd time, f0r the 3rd time 0r even the 1oth time.. c0x at least it let me live in my dreamland even if its f0r 0nli a few hrs.. at least, there's n0 hurts and watever in my 0wn dreamland.. haixx.......... <br /> <br /> <br />guyx, if i ever 0ffended any 0f u next week 0r wats0ever, im s0wie.. c0x aint in a reali gd m0od.. haix.. dun ask me y but i reali dunn0e.. haix.. k lahx.. end here.. newae, c0m suddenly w0rking lia0x.. dunn0e y.. mb is g0d playing s0me prankx 0n me bax.. haix.. study.. dunn0e.. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 17.34 __* -- sly r0x ! luckily he's saved. hahx.. but... haix.. -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-110033828904612224?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1100226044598514042004-11-12T05:16:00.000+08:002004-11-12T10:20:44.600+08:00\\ y0o h0o ! // <br /> <br /> <br />s0 l0ng naber bl0g le ehx ? g0t my tupid pc sp0ilt lia0x lahx.. n0w at pple's hse bl0ggin.. suey h0rx ? ya l0rx.. hahx.. newae, t0k b0ut tues bax.. hahx.. went t0 watch sharktail wif tingx, wend and weiting.. hahx.. damn funny l0rx.. but i realised i wasnt reali laughing.. jux deceiving myself.. f0rcing myself t0 laugh when i cant reali laugh 0ut.. hahx.. sick h0rx ? haix.. dunn0e lahx.. laugh when i c0uldnt.. wat the hell am i d0ing ???? haix.. perharps due t0 the chem paper den i like tt bax.. haix.. g0nna flunk my chem paper i guess.. haix.. everything cum 0ut 0ne i all dunn0e h0w t0 d0.. haix.. mum n0e my paper difficult.. haix.. dun even n0e h0w t0 tell her tt im g0nna flunk my chem.. haix.. den next dae, wed, g0 study wif tingx and weiting.. haix.. met 2 bhb gerx.. think they beri chi0 like tt.. hahx.. den was yesterdae.. my g0d !! energy r0x man ~ hahx.. damn hands0me siax.. my g0d.. hahx.. k lahx.. bl0g till here.. wan watch vcd lia0x.. hahx.. <br /> <br /> <br />0s finishing s0on lia0x ~ hahx.. hapi hapi ! =B <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 10.27 __* - haix.. - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-110022604459851404?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1099828907140822142004-11-07T17:16:00.000+08:002004-11-07T20:01:47.140+08:00\\ thinking, thinking, and thinking.. // <br /> <br /> <br />hmmm.. din hab much thing 0n t0dae.. went tuiti0n as usual and t0t it was my last dae 0f tuiti0n.. but end up my tuiti0n teacher ask me t0 g0 again next week.. sianx siax.. mind wasnt wif wat he was teaching.. was thinking b0ut 0ther thingx.. t0tx went wild again.. haix.. wat the hell am i d0ing.. dunn0e lahx.. hate myself.. dunn0e wat im d0ing.. tml maths paper 2 and yet here i m, bl0gging.. sia0x lia0x me.. haix.. dunn0e lahx.. can everything jux end.. am i thinking to0 much.. i rather everything did n0t happen.. haix.. a f0g0tten mem0ry.. <br /> <br /> <br />hapi birdae w0rx weiting ! heex.. all the best f0r ur everything w0rx ~ heex.. <br /> <br /> <br />end 0f everything.. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.05 __* -- f0rg0tten -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109982890714082214?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1099750123279307962004-11-06T17:16:00.000+08:002004-11-06T22:08:43.280+08:00\\ y0o h0o ! // <br /> <br /> <br />pple sae i l0ng l0ng time n0 update lia0x s0 here i m t0 update my bl0g ! heex.. hmmm.. last wh0le habing my 0 lvl examx.. hmmm.. n0t bad but jux s0me careless mistake.. heex.. cann0t help lahx.. human err0r ma.. heex.. hmmm.. din d0 much this week xcept t0dae lahx.. hahx.. g0 teach weiting maths at sp.. den finish teaching le decide t0 g0 haig rd play bball.. but end up 0nli thr0w s0me balls niax lahx.. hahx.. hu call them keep 0n play team wif 0thers den we tw0 like g0 there nth t0 d0 xcept c niax.. hahx.. saw him.. ya, act like frenx.. g0t n0 much feelings.. mb f0rg0tten le ? h0pe reali is ehx ? he 0so.. hahx.. wh0le hp her msg.. hahx.. sick h0rx ? 0k lahx.. den d.y came !! wahahaha ~ l0ng l0ng time n0 c him lia0x lehx.. heex.. s0 cutee.. heex.. den wear same shirt wif him lehx !! my g0d ~ den guess he sae wat ? ' we xin y0u ling xin ma ! ' my g0d ritex ? i was like wahahaha ~ heex.. s0 hapi.. din bai g0 there lahx.. at least get t0 c him.. heex.. ehx.. dun misunderstand h0rx.. the him is d.y h0rx.. hahx.. n0t weide h0rx.. getting 0ver him le bax.. hahx.. gd tt still frenx.. still can play play dee dee sia0 sia0 each 0ther.. hahx.. all the best f0r him and tt bitch bax.. hahx.. hmmm.. think tt's all le be.. hahx.. g0t nth m0re t0 write le.. heex.. all the best f0r pple taking 0 lvl next week w0rx.. heex.. including myself lahx.. jia y0u ! heex.. <br /> <br /> <br />d.y damn cutee man ~ heex.. hapi hapi.. u made my dae man ~ =) =B <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 22.12 __* -- i l0ve u ! -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109975012327930796?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1099186339120876852004-10-31T05:16:00.000+08:002004-10-31T09:34:02.566+08:00][ i deleted everything away` ][ <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />i n0e its imp0ssible le. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />fine. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />let everything end here. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />a f0rsaken l0ve. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />let those mem0ries drain al my soul away. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />i've had had enuff. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />][ all al0ne` ][ <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 09.35 __* -- take my life away -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109918633912087685?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1099048741393017872004-10-29T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-29T19:19:01.393+08:00\\ i mish u a l0t suddenly // a life with0ut u.. <br /> <br /> <br />g0t the keychain t0dae.. act again.. y cant i jus be myself ? if im reali sad y cant i jus show it 0ut ? rite n0w my heart hurtx.. h0w i wish im the 0ne by ur side t0 share all ur j0y and sadness.. but i c0uldnt be tt '0ne' in ur heart anym0re.. y cant u gif me a chance ? but im glad this two daes i manage t0 be cl0se t0 u and t0k t0 u.. its been a l0ng l0ng time since i reali t0k t0 u 0r being near u.. i c0uldnt help but wanna get cl0se t0 u.. my heart jux l0ng f0r u.. but i c0uldnt hab u.. is it reali tt imp0ssible between us ? is it reali tt imp0ssible ? haix.. n0w c ur result.. m0re w0rried f0r u.. luckily u g0t pr0m0ted.. when i heard g0t pple retained i scared it was u.. reali w0rried f0r u.. but u naber n0e h0e much i cared f0r u.. yesterdae i nearly l0st the anklet.. act as if i dun care much.. but i was anxi0us.. h0w c0uld i p0ssibly l0st such an imp0rtant t0 me ? search high and l0w f0r it.. finally f0und it.. naber again will i l0se it.. if ever i d0 it again.. i wun f0rgive myself.. <br /> <br /> <br />aint g0ing t0 c u again.. till next yr i guess bax.. mish everything.. esp. u.. haix.. aint writing anym0re.. it makes me feel even m0re sad.. i hate the feeling 0f l0nging.. but i mish u.. haix.. and l0ve u t0o.. haix.. where r u n0w ? <br /> <br /> <br />\\ 2 m0re daes t0 study and yet im still thinking 0f such things ? but i reali mish u.. haix.. // <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.23 __* -- mish and l0ve u -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109904874139301787?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098959890574684882004-10-28T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-28T18:38:10.573+08:00\\ freezing !! // haix........ thurs jux past like this.. me and him ? i dunn0e.. <br /> <br /> <br />went sch stufy todae.. did chem and emaths.. ok lahx.. hahx.. den they g0 find ah sam study f&n s0 i os0 g0 l0rx.. damn *sianx* arx.. keep 0n yawning and yawning.. hahx.. beri sianx l0rx her teaching.. den finally recess time.. left the grp t0 get back my dict fr0m steve.. hell l0rx he din cum t0dae.. all 0f them sae he 0readi g0 f0r 'h0lidae' lia0x.. he sux lahx.. hahx.. sae wan pass t0 me but end up naber cum.. den tok tok wif him.. s0 l0ng naber t0k t0 him 0r l0ok int0 his eyes lia0x.. tt feeling has change lia0x.. cant xplain but jux different.. will he ever f0rget the things between us ? h0w i wish he wun.. haix.. things are changing rapidly.. din get the thing he wanna gif me todae.. angel f0rg0t t0 bring.. a keychain he did f0r me f0r 0ur 2nd mth's present.. am touched when i heard b0ut this thing.. but its meaningless t0 n0e it n0w ritex ? but watever it is, i will cherish it well.. c0x its a thing he made f0r me and him.. haix.. ends my dae bax.. <br /> <br /> <br />\\ 3 m0re daes t0 0 lvl le w0rx ~ pple mux jia y0u h0rx.. care ! // <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 18.41 __* -- a different feeling -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109895989057468488?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098876646977438242004-10-27T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-27T19:30:46.976+08:00\\ 27 0ct // y g0t things happen again ? i dunn0e.. haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />alm0st br0ken int0 tearx jux n0w.. haix.. y like this lehx ? y 0waes let me n0e when everything ended le ? y 0waes let me feel regretful or sad ? y 0waes let me be the last t0 n0e ? y cant things jux stay as where they are ? haix............... can i return 0ne 0f it t0 him ? can i ? will he reject ? will he ? haix........ i s t i l l l i k e h i m.. ever if its 0readi fade le.. haix.. h0w ? <br /> <br /> <br />g0t s0me pple dunn0e nth better t0 d0 0r wat msg me nonsense things.. if ever i found 0ut tt its a prack 0r watever, i will NEVER LET TT PERS0N 0FF S0 EASILY !!! argh !!! everything's against me lahx !! F U C K T H I S W H O L E D A E L A H X !!!!!!! argh !!!! <br /> <br /> <br />5 m0re daes t0 0 lvl lia0x.. but im still slacking ard ? wat the fook siax.. haix.............. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.34 __* -- fuck 0ff fr0m my sight ! -- <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109887664697743824?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098791833737531292004-10-26T17:16:00.002+08:002004-10-26T19:57:13.736+08:00<table border="1" border width="'350px'" bg style="color:'#ffffcc';"><tr><td bg align="center" style="color:#ffccff;"><span style="font-family: Arial,Verdana; font-size: 10pt; color: black;">Your Love Style Is...</span><br /><span style="font-family: Arial,Verdana; font-size: 20pt; color:#cc0000;">Caring!</td></tr><tr><td bgcolor="white"><img src="http://images.datingtips.ws/style-caring.gif" align="left" /><span style="font-family: Arial,Verdana; font-size: 12pt; color: black;">You seem to have it all worked out. 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You are emotional strong, warm and know how to love. More importantly you think with both your head and your heart allowing you to handle all romantic situations calmly. How did you get this smart!!</span></td></tr></table><br /><a href="<a href=">What'>http://www.datingtips.ws/quiz-love-style.php">What</a> is your Love Style?</a> Find out at <a href="http://www.datingtips.ws/">DatingTips.ws</a> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109879176243817765?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098790925629535802004-10-26T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-26T19:42:05.630+08:00BITCH BITCH BITCH !! wahahaha ~ if u are trying to read my blog bitch, i hate u bcox u hurt pple's heart k ? not any other thing else.. wahahaha ~ hu call u so flirt ? BITCH BITCH BITCH !! <br /> <br /> <br />yesterdae and t0dae went back t0 sch.. hMmm.. gain mani kn0wledge and ok lahx.. but suay.. early morning.. tot wun c him but end up c him in front of the staff rm benches.. wat the hell ritex ? hahx.. but watever.. cannot avoid de.. wahahaha ~ the fact is oso wanna c him lahx.. wahahaha ~ onli left this week so bu c bai bu c ma.. wahaha ~ den did sum revision in sch.. left at 2++ these two daes den g0 sp study l0rx.. actually 0so din study much lahx.. keep 0n g0ssip and g0ssip.. wahahaha ~ gerx ma.. cant help.. den t0dae lehx.. g0 sch early at 7.45 like tt.. g0 canteen eat eat crap crap den g0 library study lia0x.. but me t0o tired lia0x s0 went t0 slp.. but slp n0t l0ng wake up f0und 0ut wend and xh g0ne missing.. mia siax.. hahx.. den went find them f0und 0ut they in canteen.. s0 g0 find them wif tingx l0rx.. saw him there.. ya, g0t eye c0ntact but tt's n0rmal ritex ? hahx.. den j0ke ard, crap ard agn den g0 back library study lia0x.. hMmm.. den after sch saw tt BITCH.. dia0 her den went back library g0 pack bag lia0x l0rx.. den saw him agn.. hMmm.. ok lahx.. used to it le.. den pack bag went off to sp le l0rx.. heex.. tt ends my dae at sp g0ssiping wif tingx lorx.. hahx.. =) <br /> <br /> <br />tml 0ur sch 0pen hse lehx.. heex.. g0ing t0 c ch0ir tml.. heex.. but t0o bad they n0 sch.. sianx half ritex ? ok lahx.. hahx.. h0pe tml will be a better dae ! heex.. =) <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.45 __* - dunn0e - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109879092562953580?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098617813341176952004-10-24T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-24T19:36:53.340+08:00g0ing back t0 sch tml l0rx !! hahx.. dunn0e lahx.. haber decide.. hahx.. haix.. l0ng l0ng time naber g0 back sch le lehx.. haix.. n0t sae miss sch lahx.. but miss my frenx.. haix.. l0ng time n0 c them lia0x.. sianx.. hMmm.. all in all am i reali g0ing back t0 sch t0 study ? hahx.. i 0so dunn0e.. s0 l0ng n0 c lia0x.. hahx.. n0t beri l0ng 0so lahx.. 6 daes niax ma.. hahx.. i can actually bear t0 st0p f0r 6 daes lehx.. hahx.. dun care b0ut wat i saying lahx.. im jux being crazy 0nli.. hahx.. nitex den decide wan g0 sack sch a n0t bax.. <br /> <br /> <br />everydae studying wif tingx w0rx.. hahx.. h0pe she reali study ehx ? mux d0 the hw i gave u h0rx.. hahx.. den went back hm at ard 6++.. saw a bian xing ren at bedok interchange.. wat the hell man ~ s0 damn tall l0rx.. den wear damn sh0rt de dunn0e is skirt 0r sh0rt.. my g0d ~ think is an angm0h 0r china 0ne ba.. but den h0rx.. aiy0.. me c lia0x wanna puke siax.. n0t tt i kan bian them 0r wat lahx.. but h0rx.. is reali n0t nice l0rx.. haix.. but watever it is, n0t my business ritex ? hahx.. k lahx.. end here.. gd luck ! <br /> <br /> <br />*\\ 0s in jux 7 daes w0rx ~ mux jia jia jia y0u w0rx ~ heex.. //* <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.40 __* - blured - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109861781334117695?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098444647946057552004-10-22T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-22T19:30:47.946+08:00* \\ bing0 bin ! //* <br /> <br /> <br />went study wif tingx todae.. hMmm.. early in the morning went bai bai wif my parents.. *sianx* den take 8o t0 meet tingx t0 g0 sch gif clarissa the choir t-shirt s0 tt my jun0ir g0t shirt to wear f0r next week open hse.. hMmm.. think g0ing back 0n tt dae to c how choir fair bax.. den take cab down t0 sp eat ljs den g0 mac study lia0x.. hahx.. study study till we two wanna die liaox arx.. t0dae study damn l0ts lorx.. den was damn damn tired arx.. haix.. but wat to d0 ? 0s is jux in 9 daes time.. haix.. thingx running through my mind but i dunnoe wat is it.. wierd ehx ? haix.. i oso dunnoe y.. watever it is.. nth is more important than studies, books and still studies n0w.. i gave up.. haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />9 m0re daes t0 '0' lvl.. everybody mux jia y0u w0rx ~ haix.......................... <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.34 __* - brain-dead - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109844464794605755?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098357750506315382004-10-21T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-21T19:22:30.506+08:00``\\ y0o h0o !! //`` <br /> <br /> <br />heex.. guess wat ? todae's wEnD's birthdae worx ~! heex.. meet they all 12++ in the noon den went to ms de kenny roger eat liaox.. heex.. jared eat until wan vomit liaox arx.. hahx.. cox the cheese marcoroni turn cold so no nicee to eat.. hahx.. den wei ting finish everything lehx.. pro horx ? den we put our straw on the muffin and sing hapi birthdae song to wend !! heex.. so hapi hapi.. pple all ard kept watching lehx.. hahx.. enjoy our lunch there.. den jo and steph came.. tok a while den decide go watch ouija board.. the guys and weiting go meet sk and yr liaox.. hahx.. second time watch ouija board liaox.. hMmm.. sianx is sianx lahx.. hahx.. cox nicee but not reali tt nicee ma.. den finish watching, went out saw sk and norman.. hahx.. went play ddr wif tingx den go to bugis wif wend to take picx le !! heex.. but too bad xh left us early.. mama scold her liaox.. =( heex.. took the picx and wend beri pretty lehx.. hahx.. reali lorx.. heex.. next time den show u all the picx.. heex.. den walk walk tok tok den go bedok meet up wif sizheng to get wend's present again.. hahx.. sizheng so cuttie !! hahx.. gong gong one.. hahx.. beri cute lehx.. c wend oso forgot to wish her hapi birthdae.. hahx.. den reach interchange, part our way to take different bus liaox.. hahx.. reali enjoy my dae man.. heex.. <br /> <br /> <br />`~` haPi biRtHdaE t0 u ! haPi biRtHdaE t0 u ! haPi biRtHdaE t0 wEndy ! haPi biRtHdaE t0 u !! heex.. `~` <br /> <br /> <br />l0ve u all l0tsa l0ts !! mux study hard hard horx.. '0' lvl 10 m0re daes niax h0rx.. heex.. mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.26 __* - saD - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109835775050631538?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098271810597951942004-10-20T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-20T19:30:10.596+08:00- saD - <br /> <br />went study wig tingx and hou soon.. hMmm.. dunnoe y.. din study much.. heart not there to study ehx.. think play too much todae le ba.. haix.. den.. haix.. dunnoe lahx.. being remind of sumthing tt shldnt be remind of.. haix.. but watever.. its oreadi done.. i hab to learn to be remind ehx ? haix.. watever.. dunnoe lahx.. no mood to blog le.. haix.. tml wEnD's birthdae worx ~ <br /> <br /> <br /> haPi biRthdaE to wEnD !! heex.. mux be hapi owaes k ? mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br /> <br />haix.......................... <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.33 __* - why ? - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109827181059795194?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098188245670846042004-10-19T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-19T20:17:25.670+08:00hMmm.. todae tues.. finally study leave liaox.. hahx.. yesterdae got practical test.. din made a mess out of it but most of the results not the same.. hahx.. agn, bu shi ni si jiu shi wo wang lorx.. hahx.. but watever it is, its all over le.. hahx.. wats done oso cannot be undone le ma.. hahx.. den went eat pasta mania wif wEnD and xh.. ate so mani time this few weeks man.. hahx.. getting tired of it liaox.. hahx.. den saw tingx, relia they all !! hahx.. and it was tingx birthdae yesterdae worx ~ <br /> <br /> <br /> haPi biRtHdaE to tingx w0rx ~ heex.. mux stay hapi hapi owaes ehx ? heex.. <br /> <br /> <br />den went ard bugis walk walk den went eat ice-cream.. heex.. yummy yummy w0rx ~ beri beri nicee nicee.. heex.. den after eating went hm le lorx.. reach hm, slp, slp, slp till 8++ wake up bath den study le lorx.. hahx.. tt ends my dae after chatting on the fone.. hahx.. den todae lehx.. went pray pray wif parents den go meet up wif tingx to study.. heex.. study half wae eng hua came.. hahx.. den study study he 4++ left and me and tingx dunnoe y no mood to study liaox.. den jiu pack bag le lorx.. chat awhile den go ntuc buy thingx den jiu go hm le.. now online bloggin le lorx.. hMmm.. mood ok ? dunnoe.. everythings changing ehx ? guess so.. haix.. watever.. alone now.. haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.17 __* - alone - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109818824567084604?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1098018506387715562004-10-17T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-17T21:08:26.386+08:00y0o h0o ~ hMmm.. early morning went for tuition den meet frenx go watch ouija board le !! heex.. the show nicee nicee worx ~ me kanna scare almost from the starting to the ending siax.. hahx.. but my frenx sae no scare.. hahx.. me too sick liaox.. hahx.. but its worth watching bax.. heex.. pple hu haber watch mux go watch horx.. heex.. nicee nicee.. hMmm.. guess todae write till here bax.. nth much to write liaox.. hahx.. tml practical liaox.. sec 4s mux jia y0u jia y0u jia y0u w0rx ~ heex.. all the best.. gd luck !! l0ve ya l0tsa !!! mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 21.12 __* - miss 4g^o4 liaox.. - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109801850638771556?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097934293272364132004-10-16T17:16:00.001+08:002004-10-16T21:44:53.273+08:00<strong><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;">What's love?</span></strong> <br /> <br /> <br />When you are together with that special someone,you pretend to ignore <br />that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look <br />around to find them. At that moment, you are in love. <br /> <br /> <br />Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh, your eyes and <br />attention might go only to that special someone.Then you're in love. <br /> <br /> <br />Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, <br />to let you know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet.You are desperately waiting for the call! <br />At that moment, you are in love. <br /> <br /> <br />If you are much more excited for one short e-mail from that special <br />someone than other many long e-mails, you are in love. <br /> <br /> <br />When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the messages in your <br />answering machine or phone because of one or many messages from that <br />special someone, you are in love. <br /> <br /> <br />While you are reading this page, if someone appears in your mind, <br />then u are in love with that person. <br /> <br /> <br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">The fundamentals of love</span></strong> <br /></span> <br /><span style="color:#3366ff;"></span> <br />Think back to the day when you first laid eyes on her. <br />You found yourself charmed by the way she talks, <br />the way she dresses herself to show off her best features and <br />the way she embraces life with her laughter. <br />It seemed as if a mysterious "chemistry effect" hassuddenly developed to draw you closer to her. <br /> <br /> <br />You two then began to meet regularly, <br />and you discover more things that you admire about her. <br />Her clever ideas, her healthy values and the way <br />she stands up for you when others doubt you. <br /> <br /> <br />You find yourself thinking of her not just as a normal friend, <br />but a very good friend. <br />It is often during this period that a boy and a gal <br />will start thinking of bringing their friendship to another level. <br />After all, the kind of wonderful experience you have <br />between each other can only become even better <br />if it develops into a romantic relationship. <br /> <br /> <br />In other words, the feeling is really unique -no one else seems able to replace her in your heart. <br />So both of you agree to go steady and work even harder on the relationship.You "graduate" to become a couple, and are the envy of the sea of singles. <br /> <br /> <br />When You Forget The FundamentalsHowever, at some point in your relationship,you forgot how it all began.You start to take your partner for granted.Why can't she laugh in a more ladylike manner? <br />Why doesn't she dress herself more trendily? <br />Why must she assert her views and point out your silly mistakes? <br />Is she really the one for you? <br /> <br /> <br />To be fair to yourself and to her, take some time to reflect on your "love memory". <br /> <br /> <br />The "love memory' contains all the reasons that you fell in lovewith her right from Day One. <br />It contains rarely accessed snippets of how your life has changed since meeting and loving her. <br />Pre-steady days, did you heap compliments on her for the brave way <br />she spoke her mind on bullies and snobs? You probably did. <br />Did you like her unusual fashion sense that makes her stand out <br />from the crowd? Right-o. So why are you criticising or finding fault with her <br />now that she is your girlfriend?Because you have forgotten the fundamentals of love, like so many of us.You have forgotten the reasons you admired her during the friendship phase.Instead, once you went steady, you put your "love memory" in cold storage. <br /> <br /> <br />As her boyfriend, you take up a new set of demands and expectations about her. <br />These new ideas are not necessarily better; they could put your relationship at risk. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><strong><span style="color:#cc66cc;">The Secret Of Strong Relationships <br /></span></strong> <br /> <br />A healthy relationship, like learning to walk properly, follows astep-by-step development. You can't possibly become part of a coupleif you aren't friends in the first place. Ok, I know some of us break therule and plunge straight into whirlwind courtship, but how many of thosecouples can go the distance? <br /> <br /> <br />Couplehood works well when there is something you like about her (and vice versa), <br />and I'm not referring to merely the physical aspects.So whenever your relationship hits a rocky path, <br />don't give up without checking on your "love memory". <br /> <br /> <br />Rediscover the reasons why you fell in love with her, <br />and watch your relationship flourish with a newfound vigour. <br /> <br /> <br />^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^^*^*^*^*^ <br /> <br /> <br />L-Listen O-Overlook V-Voice E-Effort <br /> <br /> <br />Love is to listen to the needs of the other party, <br />giving without asking for returns, <br /> <br /> <br />Overlook the faults and find the plus point of the other party, <br /> <br /> <br />Voice out & say sweet things and express your happinessand words of encouragement for the other party, <br /> <br /> <br />Putting in Effort, keep putting in more time to find the world of love <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109793429327236413?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097923893054848642004-10-16T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-16T18:51:33.053+08:00*s0bx* *s0bx* .. todae ends my 4 yrs of education in MJR.. my graduation dae.. and i reali felt beri beri sad and she bu de.. cried as i watch the video clips and mdm heng's speech and oso when we were singing our sch song.. its reali been a beri long long time since i last sang our sch songs.. even till now my heart still pricks at the tot of leaving my sch, leaving my klass.. though we will still be seeing each other, tt wun be for long im sure ritex ? we wun be able to hab our fun times in klass and l0ts and l0ts of other thingx liaox.. i reali reali she bu de.. saw the video clip the sch did for us.. though the images and effect not beri gd, the memories jux keep flowing back.. rem the first dae we enter this sch and make new frenx wif our nerd nerd hairstyle ? tt was so cute and funny.. and as we grow up, thingx changes and a lot more.. 4 yrs of frenship and 2 yrs of buddy life.. i reali reali dun bear it.. how i wish everything would end later.. haix.. took mani mani mani picx.. wif 4g arx, wif sec 3s ones and wif graduates ones.. all these memories.. gonna keep them close to my heart.. esp. the pic i took wif 'him'.. glad tt dun nid to force him he willing to take wif me.. although the pic quite small but still ok lahx.. hahx.. last pic wif him liaox i guess ?! den went ard taking picx wif my klass guys and gerx and a lot more.. a beri beri memorable dae.. i hate to think tt we hab graduate le.. haix.. i reali reali will miss u guys a lot a lot.. reali will.. l0ve u guyx l0tsa ~! mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br /> <br />hahx.. guess wat ? me and tingx kiss again worx !~! and not jux cheek lehx.. ITS LIPS TO LIPS !! hahx.. no lahx.. kiss as in jie and meix de kiss lahx.. dun anyhow think worx.. me at this moment still straight one although some pple think im not ehx ?! hahx.. so sad to leave my meix oso.. haix.. will miss u l0ts and l0ts de worx ~ mux rem to miss me lehx.. haix.. hope after Os we will still got go k ? heex.. l0ve ya l0tsa ~ mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br /> <br />glad tt i took pic wif him.. last pic i shld sae ehx ? hahx.. hu noes mb this is our last chance to c each other liaox ? i guess so ba.. msg him tell him hope the misunderstanding between us is clear and all sorts of nonsense.. he got reply.. but later i found out tt is jy ask him reply one.. not he ownself wanna reply one.. heard le sad, disappointed.. i dunnoe y.. jux feel so.. sad tt he dun seems willing to befriend wif me again.. izzit tt difficult ? i dun understand.. but since its his choice, watever ba.. i got nth to sae bout it le.. i gave up.. <br /> <br /> <br />peeps hu are taking O lvl in 1/2 a mths time, esp my 4g^o4 peeps and 2g^o2 pple, mUx jia a l0t a l0t 0f y0u le worx ~ i reali hope everyone of us would drop the tears of j0y instead 0f the tears of sadness next yr when wE cum back to receive our results.. esp wEnD and xh k ? mux chiong and piang all the wae for our last lap liaox k ? all the best.. take care.. hope me and u are still frenx.. haix.. =( <br /> <br /> <br />btw, todae's the 5th month we broke.. fast ehx ? i oso dunnoe how i endure it.. haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 18.53 _* i * miss * everything bout 4g^o4 <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109792389305484864?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097832363798044492004-10-15T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-15T17:29:26.146+08:00not knowing bout the thingx i hab done, im sorrie for wat i hab done.. =( <br /> <br /> <br />todae go sch for two periods den pontank go hm slp slp liaox.. hahx.. went for geo and was touched by mrs yong's present and talk.. miss her real much when i graduate from this sch.. haix.. den go chup lao eat eat breakfast den jiu go hm le.. went hm, no one ard so go slp slp and slp...... and guess wat ? i slp for 4 hrs++ !! hahx.. crazy me horx ? hahx.. a bit lahx.. fancy slping so much when Os are so near.. hahx.. but tt's me.. at hm sure slp one.. on matter is got thingx on or not sure slp one.. hahx.. den wake up, finish two topics of chem den online liaox lorx.. heex.. <br /> <br /> <br />still sick man.. coughing, cold, headace.. suffering from any diseases ? how i noe arx ? hahx.. perharps brain cancer ? or even some terminated diseases ? hahx.. but dun let me die b4 taking Os lahx.. hahx.. still wan my cert u noe ^.< tml graduation dae liaox.. dun bear to leave this sch.. reali dun bear.. dun bear my klass, dun bear my teachers and esp., dun bear my frenx.. leaving real soon liaox.. dunnoe when will we be meeting each other again.. 10 yrs later ? hahx.. not tt long i guess ehx ? can i use time-machine and go back to the past ? but not the past relationships ? hahx.. 10 yrs of education down the road.. and finally we are graduating.. but y i cant bear to leave so mani thingx ? pple often saes ' MJR sux to the core ! ' .. and yet, most pple she bu de a lot of thingx from this sch.. i reali reali cant bear leaving this sch and this klass.. haix.. tml's theme is crossroad.. haix.. can i escape from the reality for one dae ? for just tml ? <br /> <br /> <br />i've learn to cry.. but i fear i will cry.. cox i noe i wun stop crying when i learn to cry.. <br /> <br /> <br />mistakes are often unnoticeable.. often after we made a mistake will we realised tt we hab made a mistake tt hurts pple's heart.. hab i done so todae ? <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 17.29 __* - i love u and my klass !! - *criedds* <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109783236379804449?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097667960193891912004-10-13T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-13T19:46:00.193+08:00being beri hyperactive todae.. played a lot in klass todae.. am i going crazy ? hahx.. dunnoe.. finally finish 2 theme for my ss.. damn long siax.. hahx.. but wat to do? 3 daes din c him le.. hahx.. more to cum in the future.. hahx.. will once a hapi memory remains forever as hapi memory ? hahx.. how i noe arx ? hMmm.. i felt so sad we are leaving each other le.. y cant daes jux go slower ? i will miss all my frenx.. miss my klass lots lots ~ =( this sat graduation dae liaox.. ms cheong sae it will be a very yan shu dae.. hahx.. jux fear tt i will cry.. haix.. i reali dun bear to leave this klass man.. haix.. can i skip tt dae and return to our sec 3 life ? haix.. <br /> <br /> <br />end here ba.. i reali will miss my klass lots lots de .. haix.. take care guys.. miss u all l0tsa ~ mUaCkx !~! <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.49 __* .+. miss u and my klass .+. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109766796019389191?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097586640145024342004-10-12T17:16:00.001+08:002004-10-12T21:10:40.146+08:00i cried.. touched.. where are u ? <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109758664014502434?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097576499240740882004-10-12T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-12T18:21:39.240+08:00hMmm.. how long no blog liaox ? hahx .. i oso dunnoe .. anyway, din hab much activities lately so nth to blog .. hMmm .. this sat graduation dae liaox.. cant reali bear to leave this sch and my klass.. afterall 4 yrs of life in this sch liaox sure got some feelings de lorx.. and my klass.. haix.. den worry whether i will keep in contact wif all my frenx a not.. esp. my best pals and those in sec 3s ones.. haix.. so mani bu she de.. how i wish sat will bot cum so soon.. like this at least will hab a longer time wif them.. haix.. y mux there be seperation in this world.. y cant jux keep everything the same as b4, dun change them ? haix.. reali will miz all my frenx siax.. haix.. love them so much.. heex.. wat will be the outcome of this sat's thing ? hahx.. future noes only.. will he be there for me to c him one last chance? hahx.. no idea oso.. <br /> <br /> <br />we hab change klass le.. change back to new block forst floor.. but beri stuffy there.. dun like.. k lahx.. till here ba.. all the best for all the graduating klasses.. take care ~ =) <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 18.25 __* - she bu de - <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109757649924074088?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097325999891606052004-10-09T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-09T20:46:39.893+08:00todae went sp study wif jared, zx and tingx.. hahx .. play play tok tok do do den decide to go zx hse play ps2.. hahx .. lazy horx we ? quite lahx .. cox i din do much work oso.. hahx .. but nbm lahx.. still got tml to do.. =) heex.. hMmm.. ovearall todae quite nice lahx.. den finish playing ps2 le go market eat eat.. hahx.. jared eat till his mouth damn red arx ! hahx.. was sweating all the wae man.. hahx.. so, tt was how my dae ends ba.. boring horx ? hahx .. <br /> <br /> <br />everything reali is changing.. even me is changing.. y cant thingx jux remain the same ? haix .. my feelings oso change.. i no longer the one i used to be.. did anybody sensed it ? or was is tt im jux being too paranoid ? i oso dunnoe.. haix.. tt's juz human beings ba.. haix.. end here ba.. haix.. =( <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.50 __* - confused again - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109732599989160605?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097234674190621782004-10-08T17:16:00.001+08:002004-10-08T19:36:05.840+08:00<em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff99ff;">Tree </span></em> <br /> <br /> <br />The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. <br /> <br />I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. <br /> <br />There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, and doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. <br /> <br />I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. <br /> <br />Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. <br /> <br />I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately and I don't have to give up everything just for her. <br /> <br />The last reason, made her accompany me for 3 years. <br /> <br />She watches me chase after gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. <br /> <br />When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile and say "Go on!" before running off. <br /> <br />The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. <br /> <br />When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so. <br /> <br />My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. <br /> <br />I shouted at her and her eyes were filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. <br /> <br />The next day, she still laughs and joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers. <br /> <br />When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my break up and she told me about her getting together. <br /> <br />I know who the guy is. He has been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy, full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of the school. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile and congratulate her. <br /> <br />When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. <br /> <br />Tears rolled down and I broke down and cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too? <br /> <br />During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. <br /> <br />It says "Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?" <br /> <br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;"></span></em> <br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;">Leaf</span></em> <br /> <br /> <br />During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? <br /> <br />Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. <br /> <br />During the 3 years of Pre-U, I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. <br /> <br />But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemons. Sourness to the extreme limit. <br /> <br />They were only together for 2 months. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a month, he got together with another gal. <br /> <br />I like him and I know he like me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me why he doesn't want to make the first move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. <br /> <br />Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. If he doesn't like me, why does he treat me so well? It's beyond what you will normally do for a friend. <br /> <br />Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right? <br /> <br />Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come and love me. <br /> <br />It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. <br /> <br />The 3 years were the hardest to go through and I really want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. <br /> <br />The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompanies me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. <br /> <br />From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm and gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. <br /> <br />In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. <br /> <br />I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away and better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile and didn't ask me to stay. <br /> <br />Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay? <br /> <br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><em><span style="color:#ffff66;"></span></em></span> <br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><em><span style="color:#ffff66;">Wind</span> </em></span> <br /><span style="font-size:130%;"></span> <br /> <br />Because I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. <br /> <br />When I first met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer. <br /> <br />During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. <br /> <br />Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. <br /> <br />One day, she didn't appear. I felt something is wrong. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. <br /> <br />I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. <br /> <br />The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note and gave to her. She was surprised. <br /> <br />She looked at me, smiled and accepts the note. The next day, she appeared and passes me a note and left. <br /> <br />"Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away." <br /> <br />"It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It's because leaf never want to leave tree." I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me and accept my presents and phone calls. <br /> <br />I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. <br /> <br />Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. <br /> <br />Every time, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. <br /> <br />I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to be my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. <br /> <br />I asked "What are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head." <br /> <br />"Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. <br /> <br />I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place and press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door, I hugged her tightly. <br /> <br />Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay? <br /> <br />Hope u all enjoy reading this meaningful story ~ =) <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109723467419062178?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097235262497848752004-10-08T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-08T19:34:22.496+08:00* heex * todae wasnt feeling beri gd in late morning .. haix .. y lehx ? haix .. den after sch go watch art of the devil wif ch, von, shanna and wei ting ! heex .. hMmm .. the show ok lahx .. not scary but rather gruesome lahx .. cox the graphics huh damn disgusting lorx .. pple keep throwing blood arx, eel arx and even metal dunnoe wat one .. hahx .. quite disgusting lahx .. but worth 6.50 niax i think ~ =) heex .. den walk walk ard den jiu go hm liaox .. heex .. and horx, todae we finally class our klass back to new block le lehx ! * yeahx * ! heex .. den horx me go slp in f&n klass slp until i reali in my dreamland siax .. pple called me i dun even noe .. hahx .. reali slp damn soundly siax .. heex .. todae ok lahx .. heex .. not a bad dae ^.< <br /> <br /> <br />sumtimes wonder, y human owaes change ? y ren yu ren will drift apart ? am i facing this kind of situation oso ? can i dun face it ? almost cried again .. haix .. this few daes aint gd for me .. everythings' changing .. change until i dunnoe how to face it .. y cant thingx jux remain the same ? y mux pple's feelings change ? izzit bcox i change or pple change ? y pple are treating me differently nowadays ? i dun understand oso .. i wish to noe the ans .. but i dunnoe how to find out .. does my atitude reali sux tt much tt cox pple to treat me this way ? i reali dunnoe how to xpress myself .. haix .. dunnoe lahx .. let nature take its course ba .. all i can do is *wait* .. haix .. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.33 __* - saded ^ seperated ? - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109723526249784875?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1097149850554453922004-10-07T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-07T19:50:50.553+08:00aint having much gd dae lahx .. yesterdae study but end up doing not much of my math .. hahx ..den now wat ? kanna bitten by a lot of wen zi !! argh ! wat the hell siax .. den todae, went study wif weiting .. hMmm .. finish my maths hw but not all my hw i think =) den saw him todae. hMmm .. ignore him. y? cox he choose to stop being frenx. fine. as u wish. mood denitely was not gd when i c him. but he reali did seem rather depress. hahx.. hu call he love sum1 hu will not love him back one. tt's wat he get for hurting other gerx ! hahx .. me bad horx ? hahx .. do u think i reali feel this way ? hahx .. watever. <br /> <br /> <br />results all out le. 1 D and 4 credits. ok lahx. failed my a-math and f&n. hope O lvl will pass lorx. haix. k lahx. write till here. nth more to write liaox. *cheerx* <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.54 __* - aint hapi - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109714985055445392?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096971055961683072004-10-05T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-05T18:10:55.960+08:00.+. y0o h0o ~ .+. hMmm .. few daes naber blog ehx ? no much thingx happen lahx .. yesterdae got back my geo paper .. overall was 49/100 ! wat the ritex ? haix .. hope like wat teacher sae herself, she will help moderate the mrkx .. arbo huh .. haix .. den i itch hand go msg him yesterdae .. and guess wat ? i tot he would at least reply as a fren .. but HE NABER ! wat the siax .. i took the first step to try and be ur frenx .. but in the end wat happen ? u dun even bother to care .. my frenx sae i shld try to be frenx wif u even if break le .. now i tried .. but look wat i get ? NTH ! wat the .. FINE ! dun wan den dun wan .. get back to ur bitchy jasmine and get out of my sight ! argh ! <br /> <br /> <br />wondering wats the world becoming .. haix .. getting crazier and crazier as each dae past .. haix .. wats happening to me ? i dunnoe .. haix .. guess nth to write le ba .. k lahx .. end here .. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 18.14 __* - depressed - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109697105596168307?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096806180967380282004-10-03T17:16:00.001+08:002004-10-03T20:23:00.966+08:00todae sianx arx .. went for tuition .. wa, damn damn tired lorx .. keep on practice and practice and practice .. though practice is gd lahx .. but horx too much will lead to ' brain damage ' one lehx .. hahx .. but overall at least im more familiar wif tt topic liaox ~ =) den went out study .. hahx .. ok lahx .. at least got finish my maths hw .. hahx .. but din touch my ss .. die siax .. left not more than 4 weeks niax lehx and im still here slacking ?! wat the hell do i wan ? and wat the hell am i doing ? haix .. i oso dunnoe .. haix .. den yesterdae saw angel's blog .. got ...'s name .. dunnoe y suddenly becum beri sensitive .. haix .. y the hell am i like tt ? haix .. watever lahx .. i oso cannot do anything .. hahx .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />now hope got sum1 got in physics can cum help me man .. arbo my physics reali can go jump building liaox arx .. haix .. k lahx .. write till here .. dunnoe wat to write liaox .. tml is eoy ss and emaths paper .. pple taking eoy tml mux jia you horx ~ k lahx .. go le .. haix .. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.26 __* - confused - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109680618096738028?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096806180477289372004-10-03T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-03T20:23:00.476+08:00todae sianx arx .. went for tuition .. wa, damn damn tired lorx .. keep on practice and practice and practice .. though practice is gd lahx .. but horx too much will lead to ' brain damage ' one lehx .. hahx .. but overall at least im more familiar wif tt topic liaox ~ =) den went out study .. hahx .. ok lahx .. at least got finish my maths hw .. hahx .. but din touch my ss .. die siax .. left not more than 4 weeks niax lehx and im still here slacking ?! wat the hell do i wan ? and wat the hell am i doing ? haix .. i oso dunnoe .. haix .. den yesterdae saw angel's blog .. got ...'s name .. dunnoe y suddenly becum beri sensitive .. haix .. y the hell am i like tt ? haix .. watever lahx .. i oso cannot do anything .. hahx .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />now hope got sum1 got in physics can cum help me man .. arbo my physics reali can go jump building liaox arx .. haix .. k lahx .. write till here .. dunnoe wat to write liaox .. tml is eoy ss and emaths paper .. pple taking eoy tml mux jia you horx ~ k lahx .. go le .. haix .. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.26 __* - confused - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109680618047728937?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096719629197753802004-10-02T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-02T20:20:29.196+08:00.+. y0o h0o .+. todae went to the seminar for the O lvl thingy one .. hMmm .. the lesson ok lahx .. hahx .. the chem part beri the funny and enriching lahx .. heex .. the teacher reali gd lorx .. heex .. if onli he is our chem teacher ..... *dreaming* hahx .. den saw 3 niceee niceee guys there worx ~ too bad me no courage to ask for their nos =( .. heex .. but nbm .. c c can liaox .. heex .. the first guy same first lesson wif us .. hahx .. my side eyes keep on looking at him siax .. heex .. nice nice worx ~ ^.< den at chem oso saw two cute cute sunshine boi same hall wif us .. hahx .. no bad looking lahx .. but my first guy still better looking ! heex .. im going crazy liaox ~ hahx .. overall, todae's lesson quite enjoying lahx .. heex .. <br /> <br /> <br />hMmm .. feeling *guilty* now .. haix .. said sumthing i shldnt said .. heex .. but wat to do ? i oreadi sae liaox ma .. heex .. so .. heex .. for get bout it den ~ ^_^ wonder how's he todae .. studying ? or going out wif her ? hahx .. hu noes ? heex .. jux hope he is hapi and do well for his eoy .. heex .. think tt's all for todae ba .. heex .. =) <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 20.19 __* - mind shaken - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109671962919775380?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096641447234156302004-10-01T17:16:00.000+08:002004-10-01T22:37:27.233+08:00hMmm .. wat can i sae lehx ? hab a nice, hapi, meaningful, surprised? dae ? hahx .. hMmm .. first in the morning mood was beri gd cox beri tired .. den after tt wen to jared hse to celebrate his birthdae !! hahx .. hab a beri beri niceee dae there worx ~ heex .. when we reach his hse, we kept on sing and sing and sing !! sing until the whole hse onli got our voices onli !! hahx .. so fun siax .. and i sang my idol ENERGY's songx !! my god ~ im damn damn damn hapi siax .. so long no sing their song liaox .. hahx .. den sing sing sing all the wae when the guys came .. sianx half .. hahx .. cox cannot sing liaox =( heex .. den tt tupid junting cum in str away use the pillow to beat my head ! irritaing lahx u ! hahx .. but heck care .. hahx .. todae mux enjoy ourselves ma ~ hahx .. den u noe wat happen ? XH IS A BERI BERI CRAZY GER !!!!!! SHE LIKES TO SM PPLE !!! ESP. GUYS !!! hahx .. zhen xiang and junting kanna sm by her siax .. so ke lianx ritex ? hahx .. damn damn damn funny lorx .. hahx .. den u noe wat ? junting kanna STRIP !!! hahx .. no lahx .. the bois sm him den ..... hahx .. aint saying out the details ! heex .. den was cutting cake time ! heex .. took mani photos man ~ so fun ! hahx .. so long naber like this liaox .. hahx .. dunnoe when still got chance to enjoy ourseleves like todae liaox .. hahx .. reali enjoy my dae man ~ heex .. =) <br /> <br /> <br />den sk help us suan ming .. haix .. believe or not ? i dunnoe .. the ans to the fortune telling was both me and him's hearts are together but cox of obstacles so now not together .. accurate ehx ? can believe de is my heart is reali still wif him lahx .. but his lehx ? i dunnoe .. haix .. din xpect such ans .. haix .. if onli this ans is a real one .. haix .. i dunnoe wat to sae le .. i can onli dream tt this dae will happen which in reality will naber happen bax .. haix .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />Hapi birthdae to JaReD worx ~ hahx .. hope u enjoy ur dae and the wish u hab made will cum true worx ~ heex .. all the best to ur O lvl and ur 'wish' ! hahx .. =) <br /> <br /> <br />and to those hu are taking their eoy next week, mux jia a lot of you worx ~ end of yr liaox .. no pray pray or play play liaox worx .. mux reali reali study hard esp. my frenx and god-bro .. heex .. all the best to u all's paper from next week onwards .. heex .. take care ! =) <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 22.40 __* .+. miz him now .+. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109664144723415630?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096541232448511452004-09-30T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-30T18:47:12.450+08:00was it yesterdae or the dae b4 the moon cake festival ? hahx .. forget le .. send mani pple moon cake festival msg .. tt of cox include him .. he replied .. but instead of a hapi reply, i recieved a sad one .. ask he y so sad .. tell him to win tt ger'x heart if he likes her .. after he reply two msg, he stop replying .. hahx .. xpected .. y did i ask him to win her heart ? cox i wan him to feel hapi .. he change a lot again .. but i choose to ignore his actions .. i dun wan to gif myself any hopex i guess .. ^.< but whatsoever, i hope he wun disappoint himself for his eoy .. heex .. hope he can do well for his eoy .. yesternite suddenly got a kind of feeling which i think no nid to describe .. was like waiting for sumthing to happen .. aint telling wat im waiting for .. sumtimes hope it would happen, sumtimes i dun .. heex .. guess im jux being stubborn to stop thinking so much bax .. hahx .. guess my love life wun be very smooth bax .. hahx .. if onli i was back to past i reali will cherish him a lot a lot and wun let him go .. but as i had said, ' if onli ......' hahx .. * longing for tt sumthing ~ * heex .. <br /> <br /> <br />time to plan for my O lvl liaox .. hab my timetable out le .. my target plan oso out le .. hope wif all these i can get my targeted grades ~ heex .. hope i wun disappoint myself .. this is the last lap le .. mux chiong all the wae liaox ~ heex .. k lahx .. end here .. <br /> <br /> <br />p.s: all the best for ur eoy ! although u wun be seeing this, hope u will naber let urself down bcox of BGR thingx ! *cheerx* up and all the best to u and her ! heex .. love u l0tsa ! .+. miz u .+. <br />and my frenx and mei .. heex .. thx for u all's concern .. heex .. im ok le .. jux sum kind of 'silly' thinking i hab got here .. heex .. love u all l0tsa t0o ~ mUaCkx ~ =) <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 18.50 __* - longing - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109654123244851145?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096365043620172742004-09-28T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-28T17:50:43.620+08:00yesterdae was 27th .. hahx .. i cried .. and i reali did cry .. and i cried in klass todae oso .. surprised ehx ? me too .. i couldnt handle my own emotionx anymore .. i couldnt hold on to my tearx .. when i hug wend, jux cant help crying .. a gd way to vent out everything indeed .. perharps p.m.s ? or mb im reali too heartbroken to sae anything .. got eye contact wif him todae .. the look in his eyes .. i couldnt jux describe .. its so frightening to look into his eyes again .. haix .. being to sensitive ? i dunnoe .. he gave me a weird feeling .. i dunnoe how to describe .. haix .. am i being to stubborn to carry on ? i reali dunnoe wat to do anymore .. everytime we c each other, i dunnoe y i jux wan to ignore his vision .. i dun wan to look into a pair of eyes tt once hurt me .. and a pair of eyes which is seeing other gerx too .. haix .. getting crazy i guess .. guilty ? hahx .. nobody noes .. i jux wanna sae i still likes u a lot .. haix .. but u wun noe it anyway .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />wanna thx wend and xh a lot .. if u two din stand by me todae, i guess i reali will go kill myself .. yesterdae nite was reali habing the sucidal ( izzit like tt spell ? ) tots .. feel tt i hab enuff of life and may as well go die better .. wanna cut my hand yet there's no pen-knife .. wanna shout out but there's no place for me to do so .. wanna jump down but i got too mani regrets .. i reali hate myself .. y m i so pessimistic ? y cant i be more optimistic ? isnt it better ? y did i keep on clinging onto something tt wun return back to me when i tell others not to cling on anymore ? i oso dunnoe .. i hate myself for being like this .. shldnt i be contented for the thingx i hab now ? haix .. tt's human i guess .. owaes not contented wif the thingx they hab .. causing themselves to become more and more sad and all those things .. wend and xh, reali reali wanna thx u two .. thx for gifing me ur hug ( wend ) and thx for being by my side .. if u two are not those hu mind being kiss .. hahx .. i would long hab kiss u two le .. heex .. reali reali thx u two a lot .. love u two l0tsa ! mUaCkx ! <br /> <br /> <br />dedicate to wEnD: dun sad sad le k ? mux owaes hab more confidence bout urself .. dun think tt if u fail once u will fail all .. i noe u r optimistic towards life .. so y not be optimistic towards ur studies too ? dun owaes stress urself .. it will naber do u any gd de .. dun think tt u cannot do well for anything or u are wat so shld not be in this klass .. its becox u got this ability so u are able to be in this klass one .. u are an intelligent ger .. everything has its disappointment to it de .. y not turn this disappointment into a motivation for u ? not everytime is a disappointment de .. mux learn to be more confidence and stop pressurising urself .. no one is pressurising u u noe ? u are jux trying to presurize urself to get better results onli .. relax when there's a nid .. we are human lehx .. not robot .. even robot oso will become spoilt if it overworks ritex ? work hard hard for our Os k ? now is reali our last 100m liaox .. mux chiong all the wae to get wat we wan liaox .. so we three mux jia you together k ? heex .. love u two l0tsa l0ts ! mUaCkx ~ =( <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 17.54 __* - cried - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109636504362017274?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096203603594677412004-09-26T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-26T21:02:32.613+08:00i lost the keychain i hab wif him for our 1st mth .. hahx .. fated to lose it i guess .. so careless of me ehx ? hahx .. ya .. forget bout everything .. forget bout it .. haix .. i lost the onli thing i hab wif him .. hahx .. funny ehx ? hahx .. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahax !!!!!!!!!!!!!! carelessness .. hahx .. =( <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109620360359467741?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096198445516934322004-09-26T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-26T19:34:05.516+08:00* coLd * hahx .. went to watch new police story todae .. hahx .. turn out to be more of the comedy but oso action parts lahx .. worth $8.50 and oso worth watching twice siax .. hahax .. reali beri nice .. peepx hu haber watch it shld watch it siax .. hahax .. den go take some neo-printx den go hm liaox .. *sianx* siax .. hahax .. but wat to do ? heex .. den play ddr wif weiting .. heex .. long long time no play liaox .. although skill still bad but still passable lahx .. heex .. overall, enjoy my dae a lot .. heex .. <br /> <br /> <br />perharps im reali lying to myself to forget all those thingx ba .. but i wun allow myself to make a similar mistake anymore .. one time is enuff le .. jealous as u may, happy-go-lucky as u may .. i live my life and u live ur life .. i wan go out wif hu i got my choice .. if u reali am jealous den i wanna sae since i got no ritex to jealous so do u .. go steady as u may .. its not my business anymore .. so peepx, if i ever mention his name again, slap me or beat me .. cox i dunnoe how to control myself le .. haix .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />tml getting more of the prelimx resultx .. gd or bad ? i dunnoe .. haix .. this prelim hope to do well but still i din .. my marks are way below my expectation .. haix .. din work hard enuff i guess .. but no beri big motivation for me to work hard .. haix .. k lahx .. end here .. nth much to write oso le .. see next week got chance to watch one missed call or white chicks a not lorx .. heex .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.37 __* - hapi or sad ? - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109619844551693432?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096112965079503372004-09-25T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-25T19:49:25.080+08:00<span style="color:#000000;">wo hen xiang ni .. ni zhi dao ma ? y do pple owaes look back into the memoriex they once had when they know they will feel sad and tearx will start whelm up in their eyes when they do so ? the reason is -- they miz those moments .. do crying reali help tt much ? i reali wish i can cry .. to let go of my feelings .. i didn't wan to cut myself .. its's because i cannot let go of my feelings tt i do so .. hu likes to inflict pain on themselves so much ? i wanted to cry badly .. i wan to forget u .. i wanted to get someone else to replace u from my heart .. but my love for u is too deep .. too deep for me to reali hate u .. too deep for me to completely let go of my feelings for u .. those memoriex .. the tot of erasing them from me forever seems so difficult .. i dun bear to .. jux like tt dae when we broke and how i wish i did keep u behind .. love is reali a very strong feeling .. u noe tt guy hurts u so much and u deserve a much more better guy .. but u still cling onto him knowing u and him wun be back together again .. wat a strong feeling it is .. i noe u like another ger and is soon going to be wif her le .. i noe i can do nth .. i can only hide my feeling .. pretending tt i hate u so much to make u hate me .. u think i dun wan to tok to u ? u think i dun wan the guy beside me to be u ? u think i hab long forgotten hu u r and i dun like u anymore ? i haber .. its becox i dun wan to destroy the onli thing i hab wif u .. ur memoriex for me .. this is the only thing i can shared between u and me le .. y izzit that in a broken relationship, mostly is gerx get hurts while guys remains the same ? haix .. =( i love u and miz u lots ..</span> <br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span> <br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span> <br />ni zhai na li zhe xie nian lairu yi bu ru yi <br />hai kuai le hai dan chun hai mei li <br />shi guang ru he dui ni <br />wo zai zhe li ren hai zhong yi zhuo dao yu <br />hen ping jing feng ping lang jing <br />zhi chu le shen ye le hui yi hui feng kuang lai xi <br />wo hen xiang ni ni zhi dao ma <br />ru guo ke yi ju ran wo zai jian ni <br />mei hao wei xiao qing che yan jing <br />hao que ding na chang fen li zhi hui le wo yi ge er yi <br />wo hen xiang ni ting jian le ma <br />zhe shi wei yi wo wu jie de kun jing <br />na xie guo qu bu jen guo qu <br />bu guan wo hou lai yu jian duo shao ren <br />zhi nen tan xi dou bu shi ni <br />wo zai na li ni hui bu hui ou er hao qi <br />yu mei yu ceng jing huai yi <br />wo shuo wo hui wang ji zhi shi zhong hao yi <br />dou bu shi ni wo zhi xiang ai ni .. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109611296507950337?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096107285281584322004-09-25T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-25T18:14:45.283+08:00paiN paiN paiN paiN paiN siax ~~ todae early in the morning went to the gym wif wend and xh .. miracle ritex ? hahax .. in gym for almost 2 hrs b4 coming out .. hahax .. now whole body so pain siax .. hahx .. hope tml still can go out siax .. den came back hm slp for almost 5 hrs man ! i siaox liaox lahx .. hahax .. btw, saw a cute cute tennis player when we were in the gym ! hahx .. xh so hua chi siax .. keep on looking at the cute cute guy .. hahx .. but me oso lahx .. hahax .. at one time when i look at him he look back worx ~ xh, jealous a not ? hahax .. den went eat eat den decide very long b4 saying go hm lorx .. haix ~ at hm sianx siax .. so go slp lorx .. den dunnoe y slp for almost 5 hrs lehx ! hahax .. nbm .. me a slping pig like de .. heex .. ok lahx .. quite enjoy todae lahx .. heex .. <br /> <br /> <br />tml sianx siax .. dunnoe wan go where .. tuition teacher suddenly cancel the tutition den tml free .. hahx .. c can ask pple out a not .. heex .. mb go watch movie again bax .. hahx .. arbo stay at hm is damn sianx lorx .. haix .. next week gonna get back more paper le .. oreadi fail my a-maths p1 liaox .. haix .. sianx-half .. k lahx .. nth much to write le .. end here bax .. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 18.17 __* - tiReD - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109610728528158432?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1096025173427521502004-09-24T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-24T19:26:13.426+08:00haix .. sad dae yesterdae .. shant sae more .. haix .. hate him yet like him .. wat the hell do i wan ? jealous ? naHx .. naber k ? some more if he reali is, he got no ritex to be one cox i noe i hab no ritex to be jealous of him and tt *bitch* .. my mood totally down .. how i wish this one mth can pass as fast as it can ................ haix .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />watch the ghost yesterdae .. nice story line but ghost not tt scary lahx .. jux tt it keep on suddenly cum out i keep on scream ~ *oPpx* hahx .. watch wif weiting(4i) .. i look like a timid mouse than her siax .. hahx .. overall quite nice lahx .. hahx .. took photos wif her .. long long time no take wif her liaox .. hahx .. nice nice picx worx ~ heex .. but everything was spoilt .. spoilt .. i hate yesterdae .. i hate the date 27 .. i hate everything bout him now ! arghhh !! wat the hell .. utterly disappointed .. i noe i oso dun hab the ritex to sae so .. but .. he reali change le .. i hate his attitude .. esp. towards me .. as if im his enemy like tt .. watever .. i noe i not in the wrong can le .. haix .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />actually ger and boi can be buddy frenx one .. its whether u wan it or not .. but i wun be one wif him .. cox i noe we both can naber return to the past buddy frenship we once hab .. haix .. lost a fren .. but wat to do ? its me hu made the wrong decision tt cox all these to happen ..haix .. from now on .. will cherish every frenx i hab now .. my frenx out there, i reali love u all a lot .. love meaning for frenship one of cox lahx .. heex .. love u all lotx ! mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br /> <br />index finger now beri pain .. dunnoe is sprain or wat .. haix ..cannot crack my finger .. pain pain siax .. haix .. so suey siax .. now my suey star change liaox .. hahx .. its him le i guess .. aint going to bump to him anymore .. dun wan suey through my last mth in this skool .. hahx .. k lahx .. stop here le .. heex .. haix .. =( <br /> <br /> <br />p.s: meix, cheer up k ? everyone is behind u now .. mux pull urself up and let him go k ? heex .. love ya lotsa ! mUaCkx ~ =( <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.29 __* - moodless - =( <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109602517342752150?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095853870898392092004-09-22T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-22T19:51:10.900+08:00yOo hOo ~ todae quite an enjoyable dae .. heex .. went out wif wEnD and xh .. gO watch the cinderalla story ~ oMg ~ its damn damn damn nice norx ~ funny yet touching .. heex .. like this movie a lot .. if can i dun mind watching it for a second time ~ heex .. den shop shop ard wif wend and xh den xh nid go meet her mama so left me and wEnD sHop shop liaox .. walk walk far east awhile den din find any suitable earing and top so went down to heeren c got a not lorx .. hahax .. saw some not bad-looking guyx lahx .. heex .. den when reach heeren, saw shanna and her fren ( *oPpx* forgot her name .. heex ) .. sae hi den me and wEnD carry on walk walk heeren lorx .. den we take picx ~! heex .. long long time no take picx pic liaox ~ heex .. wEnD finally hab a new smiley face ! heex .. first time lehx .. heex .. took tt machine although the money was more worth other machine but still its ok lahx .. heex .. got 2 we both like a lot .. heex .. den got eat old chang kee den wEnD go for her tuition and i go hm le lorx .. heex .. *enjoyabLe daE* <br /> <br /> <br />if onli human can live in both reality and dream world like hillary duff in the cinderalla story .. haix .. but it would naber happen one lahx .. hahx .. but her life in the story is reali gd man .. pple hu haber c it mux go watch lehx .. heex .. its reali worth ur money siax .. reality yet dreamy dreamy world .. heex .. so nice .. hahx .. anyway, tml going to watch the ghost ( hope its successful *oPpx* ) .. pple sae its scary .. hahx .. hope its reali worth my money watching .. heex .. k lahx .. write till here .. tml got thingx den write bax .. heex .. <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 19.54 __* - haPi sHa la la la ! _ <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109585387089839209?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095758659213364352004-09-21T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-21T17:24:19.213+08:00hOoraY ~ prelimx finally over liaox ~ hahx .. finally can play a while b4 Os liaox .. heex .. feel so relieve now siax .. heex .. but nth to do at hm .. alone at hm .. haix .. wan go out but no one pei .. *sianx-half* haix .. <br /> <br /> <br />quite a few daes naber c him le .. hahx .. gd or bad ? guess its gd ba .. pple may oreadi hab a new stead liaox lorx .. hahx .. nbm for me .. i jux nid to endure a month plus or so can le .. everything will be over then .. *grinx* <br /> <br /> <br />this whole week i everydae go out siax .. hahax .. goin mad liaox .. heex .. but i suddenly got the tot of cutting again .. haix .. dunnoe wats happening to me .. a hapi dae wif a sad tot ? dunnoe y jux wanna feel back the pain of being cut and c the blood flowing down .. seems so disgusting ritex ? hahx .. i oso dunnoe y im thinking such thingx .. heex .. <br /> <br /> <br />meix .. dun care bout tt jerk le lahx .. over means over le .. u carry on hope or wat no use de .. he wun cum back means he wun cum back de .. dun do thingx tt will remind u of him .. its silly to do so u noe ? like this it will be even more difficult to forget him .. let him go ba .. he's not zhu ding to be yours liaox .. since he's gone forget bout it .. i noe its difficult .. but if u dun walk out of this big big hole tt u hab created earlier, u wun be able to live happily like u use to be .. believe me .. he's a jerk .. not a guy worth watever u are doing for him .. think bout the thingx he hab done to u .. angry as u may and forget him .. love cannot be forced one u noe ? so learn to let go .. letting go in a relationship is the most important element to learn cox not everyone noes how to let go and carry on their lives .. cheerx up and forget him k ? *cheerx* =) * p.s: got time we go archade chiong ddr k ? hahx * <br /> <br /> <br />*__ 17:28 __* - relieve ! - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109575865921336435?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095600798239413582004-09-19T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-19T21:33:18.240+08:00I thought everything you told me was true <br />I thought no one loves me like you do <br />I thought you'll never break my heart <br />I thought our world would never fall apart <br />I thought your promises are all real <br /> <br /> <br />I thought you're sure of what you feel <br />I thought you'll never tell a lie <br />I thought your love for me would never die <br />I thought you'll always stay by my side <br />But now you've left me, Oh! How I cried <br /> <br /> <br />I thought our love would last forever <br />I thought that we would always be together <br />But all these thoughts are all wrong <br />Your love for me was not that strong <br />And now you're going away <br /> <br /> <br />I can do nothing but part our way <br />Even though our love didn't last <br />Even though are feelings faded so fast <br />You still have a special place in my heart <br />Even though we may be far apart <br /> <br /> <br />StiLL u became a paRt of muh heaRt <br />aNd no oNe caN eRAse daT... <br />fRenDShip wiLL kiP uS aLive.. <br /> <br /> <br />__ 21.35 __ - saD - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109560079823941358?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095591242039568172004-09-19T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-19T19:02:27.676+08:00change my blogskin .. thx to chun hui worx ~ change the skin partly bcox i wanna forget the past .. the previous skin contains too mani of my * memories* .. haix .. read jy`s blog .. he gave tt ger rose .. so sweet .. but a pity im not tt ger .. haix .. wat to do ? dun care le ba .. haix .. <br /> <br /> <br />got a weird dream tis morning .. i actually ask him wanna watch movie together a not ?! wierd ritex ? siaox one ma .. hahx .. den he ask me go his hse wait for him .. wait le we take bus down to mp ( oso dunnoe y go there .. there no cinema ritex ? ) .. den saw wend buying longans in a shop .. more wierd is wend still go choose the longans .. wierd ritex ? den wend sae she oso going watch movie wif us .. den i was like ' reali ? how u noe we goin watch movie?' hahx .. another wierd thing >.<" .. den on my way to find him .. dunnoe y i go cal jy ask him wan watch movie a not .. partly oso wan spite him tt i ask other guys go lahx .. den one funny thing .. he oso cal some1 and keep on smiling when tokin to tt person .. i was like *jealous* ? hahax .. den found out he was out to spite me oso .. guess hu was he tokin to ? STEVE ! hahax .. even more wierd ritex ? hahax .. den dunnoe y instead of goin to watch movie we go to mp de hawker there .. den he saw jasmine and walk to her .. i was like ' fine u wan find her y agree to watch movie wif me ? ' .. hahx .. so damn funny man .. den sumthing happened .. two of jasmine frenx dunnoe wat cum walk to me and knock onto me .. i was reali damn fucked up man .. hahx .. den guess wat i did ? i think i *slap* them ! hahx .. so shiok siax .. cant slap her slap her frenx oso not bad lahx .. hahax .. den he like scareded like tt stand at one side watching .. damn damn damn funny arx i tell u .. hahx .. damn wierd dream man .. dunnoe y i keep dreaming of him oso .. sick siax me ~ hahx .. <br /> <br /> <br />there goes my dream .. hahx .. wierd horx ? i oso dunnoe y i go dream such wierd thingx man ~ naHx .. dun care bout it lahx .. hahax .. jux sum kind of *thinking* i hab again ? hahax .. k lahx .. stop here .. <br /> <br /> <br />__ 18:58 __ *-* blured *-* <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109559124203956817?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095505329284053312004-09-18T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-18T19:02:09.283+08:00habing a lonely heart tis few daes .. dunnoe y oso .. haix .. i oso nth to sae le .. all i noe is im silly to keep my heart for him .. but im glad i din cut for him or bcox of him anymore .. its more silly than keeping my heart for him .. im feeling heart-broken` yet disappointed .. mb he din noe he was goin to be hurt by tt ger ba .. mb he reali love her now .. mb he's feeling happier wif her than wif me le ba .. even if i hab let go of u .. i still like u .. but u would naber noe .. and even if u noe it .. u wun care much .. haix .. lucky now got prelims to hang me on .. arbo i dunnoe how much i would be thinking oreadi .. and my frenx .. pei me when i nid it .. tok to me when i wish for a hearing ear .. thx a lot .. i noe im silly .. but dun worry .. i wun let myself get hurt by him anymore .. although i may still like him .. i wun allow myself to get into another relationship any sooner le ba .. i like my freedom now .. but .. haix .. <br /> <br />went study wif weiting .. din reali hab the mind to study .. was jus fliping through the books until the guys cum teach me .. finish 2 chapt and i gave up .. mind wasnt there so study oso no use .. wun go in .. so stop le and tok tok a while and go hm le .. jux hope physics will pass ba .. if not guess my combined sci would fail le ba .. haix .. prelims .. i reali hope i can do well .. i reali put in effort .. haix .. enuff le ba .. mood gone again .. haix .. end here .. <br /> <br />__ love` broken __ 19:05 <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109550532928405331?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095332434185541702004-09-16T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-16T19:00:34.186+08:00saW tt gEr tOdaE LiaOx .. dunnoe wats my feeling oso .. he love her ? she like him ? perharps ba .. watever ~ i oso cannot care much .. jux hope he will be hapi and blissful when wif her and i guess he is now .. hahax .. haix .. <br /> <br />tOdaE e-maThs p2 .. damn difficult .. mani thinking qns which i dun hab enuff time to think .. after whole paper mind was dead .. completely dead i tell u .. den todae when reach skool saw wend and zhijia goin canteen so go find them .. he there eating of cox .. den after tt finish buying zhijia's thing wanna go up den found xh den she wan go canteen eat so pei her .. den wend told me he was looking at me when she look at him .. i too ugly den look izzit ? hahax .. perharps .. den went pei xh buy her thing .. he cum tap my head .. dunnoe wat he thinking oso .. haix .. guess he hasnt read my blog ba .. haix .. he reali look much tanned over the holis .. but dun look better to me ~ hahax .. the past him was better looking i guess ~ =) shall stop here .. damn cold now .. and * thinking * of him again .. when can i ever stop * thinking * of him ? haix .. <br /> <br />___ 19:00 ___ - miZ u ? - <br /> <br />.+ ~ +. 4tH mtH bReAk aNd iM sTiLL cLinGinG oN ? haiX .. .+ ~ +. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109533243418554170?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095162676230741142004-09-14T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-14T19:51:16.230+08:00bLoggiE .. 1 week din c him yesterdae get to c and feel tt he has change .. hahax .. weird ? i dunnoe .. y m i lying to myself ? but i dun wan to face the reality .. does he reali hate me or dislike me so much ? if so y dun jux tell me ? i dun understand .. haix .. guess u r feeling blissful now ba .. me ? none at all .. haix .. tt's wat i get for loving a person so deeply i guess .. haix .. <br /> <br />todae second paper liaox .. well .. can onli sae ok bax .. no gd no bad .. xcept for ss niax .. haix .. hope tix time wun be a big flunk or wat bax .. jux hope i can do well for tix prelim .. haix .. so mani mani thingx happened this yr .. unlucky or ? hu noes .. i onli noe i made a beri wrong decision .. haix .. end here .. not in mood to write liaox .. haix .. <br /> <br />.:. 19:54 .:. - saDeD - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109516267623074114?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1095065908795731912004-09-13T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-13T16:58:28.796+08:00haix .. bLoggiE .. been quite sad yesterdae nite .. kept thinking of ... * memories * wat is happening to me ? shld be slping and preparing for my papers todae and yet i had a slpness nitex and all my mind was him and those * memories * haix .. <br /> <br />this * memorie * is one which i hurt him the most i guess .. i cut my hand in front of him but actually i did not cut .. i was jux playing .. but watever .. den he angry .. den ignore me .. sad of cox i m to first time c him so angry and * disappointed * haix .. den msg him sowie .. lie to him i go hm le .. but in fact i din .. tot he would cum and find me .. but he din oso .. when to find angel to bide her gd-bye .. she told me he not angry le .. ask me go in c him .. reluctant but went in still .. saw him .. sad .. control my * tearx * but when he cum and hug me i cant control and tearx whelm up my eyes .. he oso almost cry .. haix .. * saded * dunnoe y .. felt guilty to treat him like tis .. but watever .. over le .. jux suddenly got remind of this * memorie * haix .. suan le .. he's no longer the past him .. i cant do anything oso .. haix .. <br /> <br />msg him yesterdae to ask him lend dict to wend .. din even bother to * reply *.. fine .. heartless creature .. if i noe u aren't going to reply do u think i would bother to msg ? and btw if u are seeing tis blog now, im not borrowing from u horx .. im jux helping pple to borrow .. watever it is .. dun reply den dun reply .. dun wan be frenx den dun wan be frenx .. im tired of ur attitude .. haix .. =( <br /> <br />.:. 17:00 .:. - fCuK - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109506590879573191?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094898867929939872004-09-11T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-11T18:34:27.930+08:00yOo hOo bLoggiE ~ hahax .. todae mood gd gd .. cox go cut hair ! hahax .. short short refreshing de .. hahax .. beri shuang arx .. heex .. not bad lahx this time cut le .. quite like it arx .. heex .. hMmm .. den walk walk ard in orchard wif wend den go bugis meet xh liaox .. hMmm .. ate v8 .. oMg ~ no $$ liaox .. hahax .. but nbm .. chong chong ourself ma .. heex .. prelim gonna piang liaox so no time gif ourselves a gd treat liaox .. heex .. * excUseS * =) <br /> <br />hMmm .. had a * wiErd wiErd * dream todae .. hahax .. *sHh sHh ..* dun wan tell u all ! hahax .. no lahx .. jux some guai guai dream im dreaming again .. nth much de lahx .. and it cant be real cox i noe im jux dreaming .. it would never happened in the reality de .. cox my dream is patching wif him .. possible ? naHx ~ if will long ago will liaox .. some more pple got sum1 he like le .. hahax .. wish him all the best den ~ * wEex * <br /> <br />weLL .. nth much le ehx ? yupx .. guess so .. hahax .. jux feel tt todae's mood is gd .. heex .. if onli everydae is a hapi dae for me ! * wEex * k lahx .. stop here .. heex .. gonna * sTudY * le worx ~ mon ss prelim liaox .. everyone mux jia yOu wOrx ~ heex .. take care ! <br /> <br />.:. 18:38 .:. - jUbiLaNt ! - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109489886792993987?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094809211132130962004-09-10T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-10T17:40:11.133+08:00<span style="color:#ffffff;">he still cant replace him in my heart .. i realised it the dae b4 .. memories keep on flowing back .. i cannot resist myself to forget him or keep him away from my mind ..</span> <span style="color:#3366ff;">i like him still ..</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">i cant deny the fact .. whenever i heard him being wif other gerx, my heart tears .. it reali hurts .. it hurts so much tt i needed a knife to cut myself .. to stop all these pain .. to c tt im still alive wif the blood coming down .. i intended to buy a knife .. to stop my pain .. but i gave it a tot .. its not worth it at all .. will he cum back if i did ? no</span> <span style="color:#ff6666;">he wun and never will he ..</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">i wan u back in my life .. but i noe its impossible .. cox there's areadi so mani gerx goin in and out of ur life .. there's bound to be someone out there hu hab oreadi replace me in ur heart a long long time ago .. 1st is angela .. now is jasmine ..</span> <span style="color:#ff99ff;">i gave up ..</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">now the most important thing in life is studies .. im going to use studies to forget u .. haix ..</span> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;"></span> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">i wan no more of u .. cox im tired and numb ..</span> <span style="color:#ff9900;">Am i still alive ?</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">i dunnoe ..</span> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;"></span> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">.:. 17:41 .:. - alive ? -</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109480921113213096?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094644714844829622004-09-08T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-10T17:29:55.630+08:00<span style="color:#ffffff;">haix .. aint in the mood to think of anything ..</span> <span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc66cc;">everything seems so complicated now ..</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">haix .. y lehx ? so mani things flowing in my mind now .. i still dunnoe whether i hab get over him oreadi a not .. haix .. saw the pic i took wif him todae .. it pricks my heart when i saw it .. i reali dun understand why can he suddenly change his heart and like sum1 else .. weren't we fine a few daes ago b4 we broke ? i reali wan to noe wat causes u to change ur heart so fast .. i felt so injustice .. since u noe its unfair to me den y did u do tt still ? i reali dun understand ..</span> <span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff0000;">wats the reason tt made u change ur heart ?</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">i reali wanna noe .. will i ever noe the ans ? will u ever tell me ? i guess unless u ever get the chance to read my blog, u wun gif me an ans .. another i dun understand .. since u dun wan to patch, y din u jux tell me impossible or dun wan instead of me answering it myself ? u noe until now i naber get a satisfying ans from u .. if its reali impossible, jux sae so ! izzit so difficult to sae</span> <span style="color:#ff6600;">' NO '</span> <span style="color:#ffffff;">? haix .. if onli u can c my blog and gif me a satisfying ans .. if onli ..</span> <span style="font-size:130%;color:#ff99ff;">i reali dunnoe ..</span> <br /> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">haix .. stop here .. not in mood to write liaox .. </span> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;"></span> <br /><span style="color:#ffffff;">.:. 17:32 .:.</span> <span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;">- saD -</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109464471484482962?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094548244897447452004-09-07T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-07T17:10:44.896+08:00din stop thinking of him todae .. bad sign or gd sign ? i oso dunnoe .. tis is no gd le .. haix .. love is damn troublesome and complicated .. i hate the feeling of this .. haix .. but wat can i do ? i can do sumthing bout it .. tt is not to fall into it .. yupx .. im doing so now .. even if i fall there wun be any chance one ritex ? yupx .. i oreadi noe the ans .. haix .. aint in any mood to do anything .. haix .. i oso dunnoe y .. kanna affected i guess .. hahax .. if i ever fail my prelim, tt's for sure den =) <br /> <br />haix .. hope things jux remain as it is now .. dun developed any futhur liaox .. i hab enuff of it le .. haix .. end here den .. <br /> <br />.:. 17:10 .:. - complicated ? - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109454824489744745?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094472676524326542004-09-06T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-06T20:11:16.526+08:00read a sad story jux now .. watch a sad show jux now .. feel so sad ritex now .. y mux love owaes appear to be a sad thing when it can be a hapi one ? im scared .. im reali scared now .. u all let me think of a qns i naber think b4 .. i tot everything was so pure .. i tot nth would happen .. not until things start to appear .. and to me onli .. i dun wan to think .. i dun wan to noe the conclusion .. y cant everything remain as it is ? y mux time owaes change everything ? haix .. almost cried .. feel reali sad now .. haix .. can everything jux remain as it is ? can it ever happen ? haix .. <br /> <br />.:. 20:14 .:. <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109447267652432654?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094462787926023402004-09-06T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-06T17:26:27.926+08:00went for remedials todae .. one word .. SIANX .. haix .. RV make our mind tired out and physics was nth but SIANX .. haix .. OMG man ~ i put on weight again !! ARGHHHH !!! not again .. finally slim down a bit and now i gain weight again ?? wat the hell siax .. mux ' jian fei ' liaox .. hahax .. arbo .. hahax .. haix .. holidae no gd .. jux dun like holidae now .. haix .. wend and xh oso analyse sumthing for me .. dunnoe wat to sae oso .. true or not ? i choose not to think .. cox think le wait noe the ans more worst .. remain at the present state think is better .. i dun wan to lose any frenx or wat .. even if the truth is sumthing unpleasant, i will stop myself de .. bcox i dun wan get hurt again .. <br /> <br />sumtimes i wonder to myself .. do i still like him or wat ? fade le or still like ? i dun use love anymore cox i noe i dun love him liaox .. perharps its like onli ba .. or has sum1 else replace him which i oso dunnoe ? i choose not to think of it .. cox it will onli cox me more trouble .. haix .. if onli i can hab a more innocent life .. no nid think, no nid care .. jux like when we were in our pri yrs .. so carefree .. wan do wat jiu do wat .. hahax .. if onli now we can be like tt .. haix .. dun wan admit the truth .. hope i can change it .. cox its no gd .. and its almost negligible .. hahax .. end here den .. <br /> <br />.:. 17:29 .:. - fact ? i dunnoe - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109446278792602340?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094395763031982572004-09-05T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-05T22:49:23.030+08:00fuck u man ! a bastard like u dun deserve to be loved or love pple lorx ! c ur nick my blood boiled even more arx ! u mother fucker ! dunnoe y u are borned into tix world ! fillial to ur parents eh ? plz lorx for goodness sake if u r dun go ard hurting gerx lorx .. u think gerx so nice to hurt arx ? u bastard lorx .. jerk ! like to flirt gerx so much ! fuck u lorx ! reali feel like slapping u arx ! naber c such a fucking bastard in my life b4 ! u die reali better lorx i tell u ! save the land space in s'pore ! fuck u arx ! - help pple scold one .. hahax .. - <br /> <br />.:. 22:52 .:. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109439576303198257?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094379567313180432004-09-05T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-05T18:19:27.313+08:00im getting more and more out of hand .. y did i go c ur frenster again ? y mux i stepped into tix tearful place again ? did u ever love me b4 ? a qns keeping inside my heart for dunnoe how long le .. my heart tears whenever i c u or things related to u .. im jealous tt u wrote testi for other gerx when in the past i ask u to wrote for me as ur stead u naber did .. its silly to think like this i noe .. but wat can i do ? my heart tears even more recently .. i dunnoe y .. but a very funny thing .. the person i think about most todae is not u .. or rather is sum1 i shldnt think of .. y ? i oso dunnoe .. i naber believe time will heal wounds .. cox time will naber heal wounds .. can i jux gif up my life to get away from all these things ? i reali wish i could .. haix .. will u ever noe my feelings for u ? haix .. even if u noe there would naber be anything happening cox all u wan is freedom and the ger u love now .. which is not me .. <br /> <br />haix .. aint in any mood to crap again .. heart is tearing apart like no one else business .. can jux stop everything ? can i go for a memory erase thing ? haix .. fucking sad noe .. no one noes .. haix .. stop here .. aint in any mood to blog .. haix .. <br /> <br />p.s : meix .. cheer up k ? i hope u mean wat u sae in ur blog .. i hope u wun let me worry for u anymore ritex ? try to forget everything and start afresh k ? everyone of us wil be behind u de .. cheerx ~ Love u lotx ! mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br />.:. 18:23 .:. - tearing heart - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109437956731318043?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094299873287131702004-09-04T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-04T20:11:13.286+08:00yesterdae i jux wrote u finally aint no contacting me .. and todae ? wat happened ? u appear in front of me again .. toking to me .. y is heaven owaes so cruel ? u let me forget and u remind me of him again .. i couldnt concentrate wat i was doing .. my mind was full of him .. y cant heaven jux take pity of me and let him stepped out of my life ? its pain .. its hurtful .. when i saw u .. i reali dunnoe how to react .. i try to laugh and smile to act normal .. but deep in my heart its tearing apart .. do u noe it hurts ? seeing u and thinking tt in ur heart is another ger ? i cannot take it so easily like how u treated me 3 mths + ago .. im not as cruel as u .. u noe how much u hab upset my life ? i tot i hab forget u .. and once again u appear in front of me again .. i dun wan to be frenx wif u bcox i dun wan to admit i still love u .. i dun wan to admit the fact tt u hab taken away all my heart .. leavin jux a soul for me .. u let me think back the feeling of hugging u whenever i nid it .. i dun wan to ! i hab hab enuff of it ! i hab to act .. act in front of u .. do u noe how tiring it is ? perharps when i noe u u were oreadi such a person .. its jux tt im too silly to fall for u .. i jux wan peace .. can i ? <br /> <br />meix .. dun sad le .. dun sae nobody understand how u feel .. sure got frenx of urs noe how u feel de .. me might not be in the same shoe as urs b4 but i can understand how u feel de .. nobody wan to be seperated from the one they love, esp the one they loved deeply in their heart one .. but the fact is if the guy is no gd for u and their feeling has fade le, no matter how u stay beside them their heart wun be wif u de .. i would rather u hab a shorter suffering than a longer one u were to be wif him still .. he's a bastard .. u shld noe it .. admit the fact tt u hab see .. its no use decieving urself when the fact has been presented straight in ur face .. i noe u still love him so u wun hear out to wat other pple sae .. time wun heal wounds de .. its whether u wan to heal it a not .. if u wan it to be heal even if its jux 1 dae u will oso be heal one .. if u dun wan it to be heal even if i gif u 1 yr u oso wun be heal de .. if u reali did cut ur hand, i would sae u are foolish to do so .. ya .. u may sae i dun hab the ritex to tell u off .. but im stating the fact .. i cut b4 and i regret .. seeing all those scars means reminding u of the hurts and past u hab .. do u wan to be remind ? these cuts may well erase part of the pain u are feeling .. but will it be forever ? its jux a few seconds pain and the heartace u are feeling is back again .. worth it if u keep on cutting jux to feel the pain again ? and leaving all those hurtful scars behind ? some more if he ever noes it, he will onli think u are onli foolish to cut and u are jux trying to win his sympathy which i guess u r not ritex ? its no use cutting .. face it bravely .. as i hab said b4 in love gerx will normally be the one hu will be hurt .. and u mux be strong to overcome this obstacle .. everyone cares for u .. its jux tt mb they dunnoe how to approach u and care for u .. sometimes its difficult for pple to care for u if u close the door to ur heart .. and different pple cares differently .. not all pple are gd at xpressing their concern to u but deep down in their heart they reali do care for u .. i love u a lot so i wan u to cheer up .. mani pple loves u too .. so u cannot do anymore foolish things k ? i now reali worry for u .. its reali silly to do all those foolish things for him thix kind of bastard lorx .. not worth it .. watever he do now u oso cannot care much .. its his freedom to watever he wan .. so dun think too much le k ? love you lots .. mUaCkx ~ <br /> <br />.:. 20:14 .:. - sad - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109429987328713170?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094207647860224762004-09-03T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-03T18:39:10.620+08:00headace haber gonex .. had el prelim todae .. reali hope to pass .. put in effort .. 1st time for english .. hope compo wun be out of point .. haix .. tired todae .. partly due to headace .. and bcox of tix tupid headace, aint in any mood to do anything .. cannot laugh madly, cannot scold pple oso .. sianx .. todae oso hab choir farewell party .. damn funny .. keep on bringing food for the guys .. hahax .. hope the teacherx din notice .. * oppx * >.< hab a nice time there .. although onli a small buffet, quite fun oso .. den din go for chem .. go le oso useless .. half of the lesson naber listen go oso waste time .. went tok tok wif xiao hui and wend .. dunnoe y they end up habing cat fight ! OMG ! hahax .. real fierce i tell u .. hahax .. naber get near them siax .. wait kanna oso .. * oppx * hahax .. <br /> <br />gonna chiong for prelim le .. getting more serious tix time .. dun wanna flunk it .. still dunnoe wan go jc a not .. nid tix result to try out for the 3 mth jc one .. so mux pass well for it .. teacher sae i've improve for my e-math .. finally .. waited for almost one yr liaox .. finally got improve liaox .. haix .. pray damn damn hard Os oso like tt .. arbo nowhere to go .. miz him todae ? nahx .. not a single thought of him .. reali starting to forget him .. glad he naber contact me again .. im jux treating him like a transparent thing .. tt's me .. wat can i do xcept like tix to forget u ? i dun wan to love u anymore .. its hurting to carry .. dun ask me whether i still like u a not .. cox even me myself oso dun wan to find out the ans .. let life remain like tix ba .. haix .. <br /> <br />sorry guys tix few dae my mood so bad .. perharps going through menopause ?? hahax .. nahx .. too young for me to go through menopause .. hahax .. still got plenty of yrs to suffer .. hahax .. but really .. im really sorry bout my attitude .. i noe it sux a lot .. haix .. aint getting any idea wats happening inside me oso .. thx wend and xh for tolerating me .. heeheex .. reali my goodie good buddy siax .. heeheex .. k lahx .. till here .. <br /> <br />p.s.: my meix .. dun sad le k ? everything happen for a reason .. u hab to admit tt it happen .. dun hide away from reality as it wun do u any gd and u wun solve ur problems de .. mux ke fu and yong gan de face it k ? everybody is behind u .. do wat u think is ritex .. dun be soft-hearted anymore .. it wun do u any gd .. by now u shld noe wat the facts are le unless u dun wan to admit wat u hab c .. dun let those things tie u down anymore .. u can live a life happier than now de .. arent u more happy in the past ? i wan to c the captivating smilex on ur face again k ? winkles will appear soon if u keep on frowning de worx ~ cheerx for u k ? love u lots ! mUaCkx ! <br /> <br />.:. 18:32 .:. - pain - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109420764786022476?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094128293462472322004-09-02T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-02T20:31:33.463+08:00FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FILRT FILRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT FLIRT !!!!!!!!! <br /> <br />- y are guys so flirt ? y cant they jux treat gerx better ? my mood aint any better todae. offended many pple. attitude. i told u i mean business. i will attitude when tokin to me. but never mind. im in the wrong anyway. im sorry. headace. fuck siax. not a gd dae. failed a-math again. mood totally down. idea for guys getting more and more negative. change back ? seems impossible ? i dunnoe. i jux hate guys for being so flirt. not all of cox. and third parties. y mux they exist ? break up couples ? i mean those hu occur oreadi. do u hab a conscience ? gerx are oreadi weak in nature and guys still wanna hurt them even more. if i were them, i would rather guys hurt me den flirting other gerx in front of me. its more saddening. haix. suan le. i aint in mood to write nemore. flirt are so mother fucker esp. ' him ' ! - <br />.:. 20:34 .:. - headace sux - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109412829346247232?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094043589545425572004-09-01T17:16:00.001+08:002004-09-01T20:59:49.546+08:00FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUC YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU !!!!!!!!!!! <br /> <br />- dun cum tok to me. i dunnoe wat i will do. dun let me feel guilty if i scold u. i dun wan go sch tml. i dun wan to c. my heart is filled wif anger and hatred now. aint telling the reason. u made me into wat i m now. the more i type the more i feel angry. my heart. bursting soon. feel like stabbing my heart wif a knife. let blood just flow out. clear all my sins. change me into a total different person. appearing in my life. freedom. promise. empty. waiting. hopeless. sins. hatred. death. out. pain. knife. forget. erase. memories. fade. gone. lost. complicated. change. sad. anger. guilt. silence. crying. time. needs. vision. blured. darkness. trust. break. faith. concern. love. forget. hurts. useless. weak. thoughtless. freedom. this is all u nid. or rather. onli one. freedom. - <br />.:. 21:02 .:. - freedom - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109404358954542557?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1094035951667204752004-09-01T17:16:00.000+08:002004-09-01T18:54:28.770+08:00I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HAE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <br /> <br />- aint in any mood to tok craps todae. dun cum crap wif me cox i will attitude u. i mean business. if anyone were to hab the mood to love, i will be the one to hab the mood to slap and hate. flirts? fcuk them off k ? wan ji hong go other place to ji hong. wan tok bout feelings u are in no position to tok bout it. u are damn sucking fucking person i've ever seen in my 16 yrs of life. wat a mother fucker u r. get out of my vision u fucking irritating fucker k ? will u deserve anybody's love ? oh god, for goodness sake, get a mirror k ? and get a reflection of urself k ? a fucker like u deserve pple to love ? pui ! dun make me vomit k ? y did i turn into such a person ? ask ur self. not a sense of guilt for ur conscience. no wonder u r habing karma sooner or later. a vulgar ger here ? look, im scolding certain pple like u onli k ? do u deserve me to tok nicely to u ? fuck off if im irritating. u r a damn mother fucker son of a bastard. karma will befall on u sooner or later ! - <br />.:. 18:54 .:. - fark up &amp; pissed - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109403595166720475?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093957814457906222004-08-31T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-31T21:10:14.456+08:00FiRstLy, HaPpY tEacHeR's daE !! tml's teacher dae so i wish earlier .. heeheex .. todae sch's performance not bad worx ~ beri interesting .. long long time no so lively and ' porno ' liaox .. hahax .. was habing quite a nice time todae in sch .. hahax .. den after tt cox xh wanna meet her fren so end up left me and wend niax lorx .. den went orchard walk walk .. wa, damn damn tired arx i tell u .. my leg now still pain arx .. long time naber walk for so long liaox .. hahax .. den took picx wif her ! heeheex .. finally got chance to take picx wif her liaox .. heeheex .. den went ps find w.t awhile den go hm liaox .. damn damn tired todae arx .. <br /> <br />haix .. y is there so mani relationship pros recently ? heard liaox starting to get negative signals from it liaox .. feel tt we shldnt go into a relationship .. so troublesome .. so tedious .. haix .. c couples i oso feel irritated .. dunnoe y .. gers shld be independent .. but not gerx are like tt lahx .. haix .. perharps i got tix thinking is he cox de ? haix .. i dunnoe .. i dun like him le ? dun wan to noe the ans .. and aint going to think oso .. hu cares ? now studies cum before anything .. no cert = no place in s'pore .. haix .. mood bad ? <br /> <br />feel so tired now .. guess gonna slp soon .. aint going to stay up to think of those nonsense things .. i dun wan .. can be hapi y sad ? end here .. .:. 21:13 .:. - arrogant ? - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109395781445790622?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093777477506396142004-08-29T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-29T19:04:37.506+08:00bLoGGiE .. hOw u fEeLiNg tOdaE ? feeling tired and damn sianx .. went tuition todae .. did the tupid RV which oh hell i dun understand a single thingy ! haix .. too chim for me i guess ? >.< after tix tuition session, kindda dun feel like attending the RV lesson kong is giving .. so chim .. still mux draw diagram all these .. do until i reali headace siax .. feel so helpless when teacher ask me to do exercise on it .. sianx half man .. haix .. dun understand y tix chapt so difficult siax .. damn ~ <br /> <br />haix .. to all my frenx .. dun think so much k ? let nature take its course .. dun force thingx to happen .. cox u will naber noe wat the ending would be like .. think seriously bout wat u wanna do .. all i can is gif advice .. nth else i can do liaox .. decision all lies on ur hand .. i cannot like ask u do wat u do one ritex ? jux wanna tell u make ur decision according to ur heart .. naber do anything tt will make u regret .. cox i once regret so i dun wan u to be one too ~ =) onli u noe wat is gd for u .. and dun let it affect ur examx all tt k ? its not worth it u noe ? =) jux rem, no matter wat if no one wanna lend u a ear to listen to ur trouble, i will owaes be there to hear it .. jux speak ur mind out and i think everything will be alright .. cheers ~ >(^o^)< <br /> <br />hab i stop loving him ? i guess so .. haix .. so wat ? everybody saes he's not worth it liaox so y mux i stil carry on ? hahax .. hear so mani thingx bout how's life wif relationship .. find it tiring and tedious to hab a relationship .. u will naber hab the freedom u hab when u are single .. now den i realise freedom is reali important to me man ~ no freedom i guess i cannot survive siax .. imagine ur stead keep on asking where sre u and asking u to go hm early .. my god ~ is like im under his control like tt lorx .. damn irritating arx .. luckily now no stead siax .. heeheex .. so free and can do watever i like .. wan go out wif hu till wat time oso can .. hahax .. guess going steady and get married is the worst thingy in life ~ cox gonna get tight down and reali lorx .. all freedom kanna confiscated like tt .. so sianx one .. dun get married is the best ! hahax .. zi you nui shen wan shui ! hahax .. guess im getting more and more positive ? hahax .. isnt tt a gd sign ? yeahx ! hahax .. k lahx .. write till here .. and again .. if i offended any of u out there .. I'm sorry ! dun mean it .. heeheex .. .:. 19:12 .:. - haPi ! - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109377747750639614?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093692877360019532004-08-28T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-28T19:34:37.360+08:00hMmm .. dun seems to be a gd dae for me .. hab emaths p2 todae .. aint doing well .. feel so insecure in tt tupid klassrm tt i dun feel like doing .. may fail i think .. but wat can i do ? haix .. din c him todae either .. better still ba .. like tt better for me .. haix .. den went orchard walk walk wif wend and xiao hui .. din a lot of viewing and walking .. damn tired siax .. hahax .. din manage to go watch the zpop concert held at padang .. * disappointed * haix .. wat to do ? no one to pei . haix .. =( was whole dae blur again .. dun even noe whether i got offend anyone a not .. perharps got ba .. so here i m to sae sorry to u all .. haix .. me reali dunnoe wats happening to me liaox .. haix .. why becoming like tt ? sianx .. looks like everything's against my wish ~ >.< but wat to do ? sianx .. stay at hm .. not like me .. so boring .. but nbm .. can do hw and study .. haix .. but still sianx .. <br /> <br />Once again .. wanna say SORRY to those whom i hab offended .. haix .. really beri sorry .. k lahx .. end here .. <br /> <br />.:. 19:32 .:. - miz u ? -<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109369287736001953?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093605125867269262004-08-27T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-27T19:12:05.866+08:00ntH happeN muCh tOdaE .. dun even noe wat happen todae .. blur the whole dae .. dun even noe wat im doin .. haix .. saw a beri hapi family jux now .. young children are really very carefree .. dun hab to care wat they are going to do and do watever they like .. so innocent .. wun even think things ina complicated wae .. do i hab a childhood ? i oso dunnoe .. dun rem a single bit bout wat happen when i was young .. hahax .. <br /> <br />tmL's gOt e-math test .. haix .. sianx half .. still nid to go back to skool .. haix .. do i really miz him ? haix .. i dunnoe wats my feeling now .. im confused .. sianx half .. love is so complicated .. haix .. stop here lahx .. nth to write le .. .:. eNd @19:12 .:. - bLuR - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109360512586726926?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093514899015239212004-08-26T17:16:00.001+08:002004-08-26T18:08:19.016+08:00********** <br /> <br />Part 5 <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />When I came home, I was greeted by the usual words. " Ugly wretch, wicked girl, freeloader, etc." but luckily I made it through dinner fine. When dinner ended, my parents went to sleep leaving me with the dishes. I cleaned the table and washed the dishes. I also took out the trash and then suddenly I felt someone grab me from behind. <br /> <br />My attacker turned me around to face him. It was the same boy I met in the alley. I began to panic. " I gave you all my money already! What more do you want from me? " He raised a finger to his lips and tried to shush me. I felt one of my attacks coming on. I started to hyperventilate and couldn't breathe. I was beginning to black out. <br /> <br />Ji Won looked at the girl who looked like she was going to die. " Oh my God! Are you okay? " This time it was the girl who turn to shake her head no. Then she collapsed in his arms. Ji Won didn't know what to do but he had to save her life. He began to give her mouth to mouth. Come on, he whispered to her. Breathe. <br />Don't die on me! After a while she began coughing and opened her eyes. <br /> <br />I opened my eyes and saw a blurry object heading towards me. Then I felt something soft pressing against my lips and I felt a gust of air. Then I realized the boy was giving me air. I couldn't believe what was happening. I blushed and gently pushed him away. Thank you for saving me. I'm okay now. <br /> <br />The boy turned slightly red. You're welcome. You kinda scared me there. <br />" Sorry about that. Well, what is it that you want from me? " <br /> <br />Here. He handed me back the same ten dollars I had given him. I looked up at him. <br /> <br />No, it's okay. Keep it. I think you need it or you wouldn't have tried to rob me.He shook his head. No. I just wanted to borrow it only. I don't take charity. Well, goodbye. <br /> <br />Just as he walked away, I heard his stomach grumble. I bit my tongue so I wouldn't laugh. Since he didn't take charity, I said, Hey! I just made some food and I don't know if it's good or not. I need a guinea pig because I don't want to serve it to my parents if it isn't and besides, you did save my life. <br /> <br />Ji Won looked at her. " Why is she being so nice to me ? " he thought. He knew she was just saying that because she heard him say he doesn't want charity. Ji Won's stomach was growling like crazy. He haven't ate for 2 days already and the mention of food was killing him. Oh, okay. I guess I'll be your guinea pig since I have nothing to do. He studied her face as she smiled at him. She's pretty ? He thought as he smiled back. <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />Part 6 <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />I let the boy wait outside as I got some of the leftover mee-yuk-gook for him. He finished it in less than a minute. Then he leaned back and sighed. Out of nowhere, he let out a burp. I had to giggle. He looked at me and smiled. Sorry about that. <br /> <br />It's okay. <br /> <br />I hesitated before I asked him the next question. " By the way, what's your name? " <br /> <br />He glanced at me and then stared at the ground. I could tell he was debating to tell me his real name or not. I didn't want him to feel obligated to telling me his name. <br /> <br />It's okay. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to. <br /> <br />Ji Won looked at her surprised. " No! It isn't that ! " he yelled. She stared back at him surprised too. Then he lowered his voice. I'm sorry. Please don't misunderstand. She nodded her head slowly and Ji Won can tell that she was confused. Ji Won felt that he could trust her and he wanted her to be his friend. <br /> <br />" My name is Eun Ji Won and you are ? " <br /> <br />I am Mi-Na, but call me Mina. It's easier to remember. Then she gave him the sweetest smile. Ji Won felt his heart beat a little faster when she smiled at him. He blushed and looks away. Uh, how old are you?? <br /> <br />13, she replied. " And you Ji Wonee ? " <br /> <br />He smiled when she called him that. I'm 15, he said turning back to look at her. <br /> <br />" 15 ? " I asked in disbelief. <br /> <br />Ji Won nodded. " There are your parents oppa ? You're too young to be living in the streets. " He shrugged his shoulders. I can take care of myself. I gave him a doubting look because he was trying to pull that tough guy act on me. It's okay though, he told me. I have a family. It's just that things are bad at home so I'm just getting away from it for a while. Guess he ran away, I figured out. <br /> <br />I could tell that Ji Won was a good person. " Do you have a place to stay tonight ? " He shook his head. How about staying in my room then, I offered. <br /> <br />Ji Won couldn't believe his ears. He stared at Mina. Did she just offer him a place to stay ??? " Ji Won ? " Mina asked as she waved a hand in front of his face. " Are you okay ? " <br /> <br />Ji Won shook his head and snapped out of it. She placed her hand on his knee. Oppa, I asked if you want to stay in my room for tonight ?? Ji Won was so touched that he felt his heartache. No one had ever cared about him so much but he didn't want to feel as though he owed her. No thanks. <br /> <br />Mina looked at him with her big sad eyes. Please oppa ? I'm afraid of the dark. Ji Won smiled. He knew she was lying so he would say yes. For the first time in his life, Ji Won felt warm inside because now he is wanted. He let out a sigh. Well then, Mina, okay. You talked me into it. But just for tonight though. She giggled and nodded. <br /> <br />Okay. <br /> <br />tO bE cOntiNuE .. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109351489901523921?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093514464900102812004-08-26T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-26T18:01:04.900+08:00tix few dae mood better le ba ? perharps ba .. dunnoe myself oso .. hab a-maths test todae .. brain almost went dead .. starting easy den at the back is damn difficult siax .. haix .. dun even noe will pass a not .. haix .. whole dae din do much .. slack and slack .. haix .. <br /> <br />nth muchx happen between the two of us .. no communication, nth at all .. its a gd thing perharps .. miz him but hide it .. love him but stop it .. wanna c him but control myself .. tix are all i can do to forget him .. can all these help ? i oso dunnoe .. to me he's a stranger to me .. a bit disappointed to lose him as a true fren .. but think its the best thing for the two of us ba .. haix .. tix is wat we call love .. haix .. <br /> <br />eNd hErE .:. 18:02 .:. - eMpTy - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109351446490010281?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093517908654850202004-08-26T14:27:00.000+08:002004-08-26T18:58:28.653+08:00 * I LoVe yOu !~! * - wD - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109351790865485020?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093429793334615622004-08-25T17:16:00.001+08:002004-08-25T18:29:53.333+08:00********** <br /> <br />Part 3 <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />I decided to take a shortcut home but as I passed the alley, a hand pulled me in. I was knocked to the ground and a shadow hovered over me. I began to scream but the same hand covered my mouth. <br /> <br />" Shut up or I'll kill you ! " <br /> <br />I shut my mouth instantly. I didn't want to die yet. In the moon's reflection I got a good look of my attacker. It was a boy who looked a little bit older than me. His face and clothes were dirty but he had really good features so I could tell he was extremely good-looking. But this was not a time to think about such things. <br /> <br />He held a table knife at my throat and said, " Give me all your money or I'll kill you! " I panicked but I knew what to do. I used the move I wanted to use on my stepmom every time she pinned me down and hit me. I kicked him hard right into his family jewels. He gasped and fell to the floor, dropping the knife. I picked up my groceries and ran. <br /> <br />I guess you can call me the dumbest person alive. I was afraid I had kicked the boy too hard and permanently damaged him. Besides, since my life is hell already, I didn't want him to go through it too. So I turned back. <br /> <br />When I came back to the alley, the boy was still lying on the floor. He was moaning softly. I lifted him up gently. " Are you okay ? " I asked. He shook his head no. " I'm sorry. " I said to him. I reached into my pocket and pulled the money Mr. Choi gave me. " If you need money, then here. All I have is ten dollars. "I placed the money in his hand and walked away. He looked at me with this weird expression that I couldn't read. I picked up my groceries and this time I left without turning back. I could tell the boy was watching me as I was walking away. <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />Part 4 <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />Ji Won stared at the girl who had just walked away. She must be the nicest or dumbest person in this world, he thought. He began to stand up but had to use the wall for balance. That girl had kicked him a little too hard. Ji Won had just run away from home again. He had ran away so many times that the alley was his second home. When he ran away he always stole his parent's money. <br /> <br />They were the richest people in all of Hawaii but they were also the most messed up family. His dad would have a lot of women with him and would betray a friend if it would bring him money. His mom, on the other hand, was an exact duplicate of his dad. She always had these young men around her and spend money like crazy. His parents were divorced and lived on opposite ends of Hawaii. " Bitch and bastard, " thought Ji Won. <br /> <br />When he ran away this time, he didn't have the chance to steal any money from his dad. So he had no choice but to rob somebody. When he saw the young girl walking out of the store, she seemed to be the perfect target. But things didn't turn out as planned. <br /> <br />Ji Won kept wondering why the girl gave him the money even though he could have killed her. Ji Won knew he couldn't take the money because she was the first person in his messed up life that was nice to him because she wanted to be, not because she wanted something from him. He wanted to give the money back. When he gained some of his strength back, he began to chase her. <br /> <br />tO bE cOntiNuE .. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109342979333461562?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093429575638434542004-08-25T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-25T18:26:15.640+08:00a vErY nOrmaL daE tOdaE .. hab lesson and all these and den end the tupid sch dae wif mr lai's tupid tok .. tok until so loudly but half the things he sae i oso never go hear lahx .. so bo liaox ones .. haix .. den was planning to go hm after habing lunch wif xh .. but end up dun feel like going hm so ask w.t wan go out a not .. hahax .. den end up go bugis take picx ~ heeheex .. hapi hapi .. finally get a chance to take tt machine .. heeheex .. if ever i got a stead i sure ask him to take wif me one ~ heeheex .. but too bad he's not wif me nemore .. but nbm .. over den suan le .. den chit-chat awhile go buy bread talk den go hm and now blogging le .. <br /> <br />bLoggiE .. haix .. tix few daes din reali get a chance to c him .. missing him ? perharps a little bit ba .. hu dun ? but at least not as much as the past .. feel like hugging him yesterdae .. but i hab to control myself .. wat ritex do i hab to do so ? haix .. prelims coming and im still slacking ard .. wat the hell am i doing now ?? haix .. so mani thingx happen so suddenly .. hope its not wat im thinking .. haix .. nEwaE .. just wanna say sorry to those i hab offended .. i noe im irritating u all recently .. sorry bout tt .. haix .. shaLL eNd hErE dEn .. .:. LoG oUt @ 18:27 .:. - eMpTy hEaRt ? - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109342957563843454?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093350785710901072004-08-24T17:16:00.001+08:002004-08-24T20:33:05.710+08:00a sToRy i fOuNd iN a wEbsiTe .. qUiTe nicE .. hEeHeEx .. <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />Part 1 <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />June 17, 1999 <br />My name is MiNa Nam. I'm 19, still very young, but I am dying. Not right now but my life is slowly fading away as I'm writing my story. At this moment I'm sitting at this very spot. Mine and Eun Ji Won, the love of my life. <br /> <br />The sun is slowly beginning to set over the lake. I took a glance at my reflection in the water. My outside looks have changed drastically within the past few months, but the water reflected the true me. Inside I'm still the same person. <br />I have done and given so much for love but never once, have I received it back from Ji Won. There are times that I wanted to tell him everything that I've done for him and make him love me back. But I can't. Love is not selfish. <br /> <br />So I did what felt right. I keep giving Ji Won my love and I never asked for his love in return. Even though I'll leave this world pretty soon, my love for him will still remain. My story begins when I first met Ji Won six years ago on this one fateful day. It all started out .. <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />Part 2 <br /> <br />********** <br /> <br />October 31, 1993 <br /> <br />You better come back here you good for nothing brat!? <br /> <br />I covered my ears with my palms. That was my stepmother calling me. Her voice sounds murderous and I didn't want to face her today. She had slapped and hit me too much already. I'm afraid I can't take it anymore so I hid in my closet. I peeked through the crack in my closet and saw my stepmom with a really pissed off look on her face. She was holding that stick that I'm always afraid of. I winced thinking about how much it would hurt if she hits me with it again. <br /> <br />I'm just thirteen and whoever said 13 was an unlucky number, they were right. My mom had died when I was just turning ten. Before she died she told me that I was the most beautiful girl in the world and how proud she was to be my mother. She said even though she's gone, her love is with me always. <br /> <br />Tears rolled down my cheeks. If you love me mommy, how can you be so selfish to leave me alone ? So now when I had turn 13 my dad had married Mok Young A, who is my stepmom today. She was a cold-hearted woman who tortured me all day. Any self-esteem I had for myself was shattered and I was living a nightmare. <br /> <br />My closet door suddenly opened. " There you are you wicked girl! " My stepmom started cursing at me as she pulled me out and threw me onto the floor. I began to tremble because I knew what was going to happen next. <br /> <br />*Whack whack whack.* <br /> <br />I cried out in pain but I knew that no one is going to hear my cries. I desperately began to gasp for air. My heart was aching again. I couldn't breathe. <br /> <br />Not again! Don't you see how much you've costing your father and me with your heart problems? If it wasn't for all these medical bills we wouldn't be so poor now ! <br /> <br />I had this heart condition where air would suddenly shut off and I couldn't breathe. The doctors are trying to save me by giving me a respirator and pills, but they're not sure how much longer I'll be able to live. My dad (who was a pathetic excuse for a man) came in. <br /> <br />He looked down at me with sorrowful eyes. He held my stepmom's arm lightly and said, I think she had enough. You don't want her to have another attack. Calm down and let's have dinner, shall we ? <br /> <br />That's why I'm hitting her !? she yelled. She got detention and stayed after school for an hour. She was supposed to be home to go buy food for dinner and make it. <br /> <br />Your daughter is so evil. She wants me to starve or something !? <br /> <br />I didn't get detention. The teacher wanted to talk to me about .. <br /> <br />But I was cut off by the whack of my stepmom's stick. I cried silently in pain and turned away. I didn't want to look at her. My dad said, Well, dinner? just going to be a little late today. Mina, say sorry to your mom alright ? <br /> <br />Despite the pain, I managed to say, Sorry mom. Please forgive me, will you ? <br /> <br />My dad handed me some money. Here. Go buy food to make mee-yuk-gook tonight. My stepmom's temper simmered down a little as my dad lead her out of my room. <br /> <br />I picked up the money and headed for the store. Mr. Choi, the owner of Choi Food Market, shook his head as I walked in. He knew what kind of hell I was going through. I finished my shopping and checked out. <br /> <br />That will be $3.49 altogether ? <br /> <br />" What ? " I asked. Are you sure Mr Choi ? That's impossible. With all this stuff it should be around $15. " <br />" I know Mina. " Mr. Choi gave me a sad smile. The exact price is $14.32. Why don't you keep the change for yourself? " <br /> <br />I opened my mouth in shock. Mr. Choi ? .. I can't do that as I handed him 20. <br /> <br />He only took five. Well. Keep it. I know that stepmom of yours don't give you any money. <br /> <br />I looked up at Mr. Choi with tears in my eyes. Here he was, just a friend reaching out to me. I said thanks and headed for home. <br /> <br />gOt tiMe dEn pubLisH paRt 3 aNd 4 .. taKe caRe .. .:. 20:33 .:. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109335078571090107?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093341828244473112004-08-24T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-24T18:03:48.246+08:00hMmm .. bLoGGie .. two daes naber blog le ritex ? haix .. so mani things happen tix few daes .. cant absorbed all .. am i under depression ? i can suddenly go as sad as i wan and suddenly becum hapi .. m i sick or wat ? wats happening to me ? <br /> <br />no mood to do anything now .. not even studying .. haix .. pondering over a lot of things .. perharps im not an easy person .. heart naber stop hurting tix few daes .. yesterdae had a nitemare .. almost broke into tears when i woke up .. a beri scared feeling .. not gd at all .. i reali think too much le .. life tix few daes is not gd .. can i avoid it ? i cant stand the tiredness and sadness im facing now .. haix .. dunnoe wats happening to me .. <br /> <br />sHaLL eNd hErE dEn .. nO mUcH tHinG tO wRiTe oSo .. nO mOoD .. iM cRaZy i gUeSs .. iM sOwiE iF i oFfEnD aNyoNe rEcEntLy .. iM reaLLy sOrRy .. haix .. <br />.:. LoG oUt @ 18:05 .:. - saD &amp; paiN - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109334182824447311?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093176903940272872004-08-22T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-22T20:15:03.940+08:00fEeLiNg saD aGaiN .. dUn feel like blogging .. watever i blog jux now has gone .. fark man .. haix .. forget it .. its not a gd dae for me oso .. i guess im not supposed to stay at hm all dae .. cox the more i stay, the more i think .. bloggie .. im getting more and more out of hand .. i guess i mux end all these things le .. haix .. sorry again if i offend anyone .. cox im not acting like myself and dun ask me y cox i oso dunnoe .. sorry .. end here den .. .:. LoG oUt @ 20:17 .:. - hEn xiaNg ni - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109317690394027287?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093096880131885692004-08-21T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-21T22:01:20.130+08:00hMmm .. mOoD iS sTiLL haLf gD haLf baD .. tHx those pple hu care for me .. sowie to worry u all .. im jux being paranoid perharps .. went out todae .. was planning to study but end up i slp in the library for 1 whole hr ! hahax .. den went orchard wif na na and ah xiao .. hab a gd time there and were joking ard .. den went out wif sec 3 frenx till 8+ 9 den cum back hm now blogging lorx .. no much thing happen .. being too paranoid le .. <br /> <br />The greatest fear i have now .. cutting my hand .. why cant i just simply stop thinking of that ? I'm sorry to my friends but i cant help myself and i just keep on thinking .. i really scare i will go buy pen-knife .. I'm really sorry .. haix .. What's happening to me ? haix .. Sorry .. <br /> <br />.:. LoG oUt @ 22:00 .:. - cOnFusEd - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109309688013188569?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1093011443345573692004-08-20T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-20T22:17:23.346+08:00mY mOoD iS tErribLy baD nOw .. im sowie if i offend anyone .. perharps i keep myself quiet is the best thing .. <br /> <br />nObOdY beLievEs tHe tiMe iS cRyiNg .. It really is crying now .. and it hurts .. <br /> <br />YuaN yOu hUi bY jaY cHoU nEw aLbuM Qi Li XiaNg --> <br /> <br />hu po se huang hun xiang tang zai hen mei de yuan fang <br />ni de lian mei you hua zhuang wo que feng kuang ai shang <br />si nian gen ying zi zai pang wan yi qi bei la chang <br />wo shou zhong na zhang lu chang juan pei wo shu yang <br />bo he se chao de fen fang xiang feng mei you xing zhuang <br />wo que neng gou lao ji ni de qi zhi he lian pang <br />leng kong qi gen liu li zai qing cheng hen you tou ming gan <br />xiang wo de xi huan bei ni kan chuang <br />tan wei shang yi duo yen yang <br />wo qiao qiao chu xian ni sheng pang <br />ni huang ruan de mo yang <br />wo wei xiao an jing xin shang <br />wo ding zhe da tai yang <br />zhi xiang wei ni cheng san <br />ni kao zai wo jian bang <br />shen hu xi pa yi wang <br />ying wei lao yu de yu chun you xi wo men kai shi jiao tan <br />duo xi wang hua ti bu duan yuan you hui yong bu da yang <br />qi qiu zai wo shou shang <br />wo qian zhe ni xia guang <br />you hua xiang dui ni jiang <br />ni yan jing que zhuang man <br />qi dan gao gen ni zui jiao guo jiang wo dou xiang yao chang <br />yuan you hui ying pian zai bo fang <br />zhe ge shi jie yue hao yi qi guang <br /> <br />.:. LoG oUt @ 22:18 .:. - piSsEd - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109301144334557369?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092910531338115722004-08-19T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-19T18:20:02.956+08:00nTh haS cHaNge .. iM nTh bUt a piEcE oF sHit .. shLdnT LiVe iN tiS worLd eiThEr .. he called me yesterdae jux to remind me to watch energy concert .. surprised but the feeling has change .. and the tone we both speak to each other oso change .. perharps its the same from the start .. we are not fated to be together .. perharps tt's the reason y we broke .. weren't much on toking terms .. put him into conference and i din mutter a single word since he came in .. dun feel like toking even though his tone was friendly .. perharps due to my bad mood tt im like tis .. or perharps i cant bring myself to face him tt he's reali gone from me .. <br /> <br />im getting closer and closer .. and i shld remain tis wae perharps .. its better for everybody .. im getting out of control .. im not hu i m anymore .. if u hate me, tell me straight in my face .. haix .. dun care bout wat i sae .. im toking rubbish ~ =) <br /> <br />* miSSing teXt * <br /> <br /> <br />eNd hErE .. .:. LoG oUt @ 18:16 .:. - fRuStRaTeD - <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109291053133811572?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092825662265189482004-08-18T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-18T18:41:02.266+08:00nTh mUcH tO wRitE tOdaE .. feeling sad at tis point of time .. finish my el oral todae .. dunnoe how it will turn out .. almost cried when i came out of the pac .. sad .. den came back hm, think bout him again .. heartace and almost wanna cry out .. im not being myself tis few daes .. fat got pro ? i oso dunnoe .. perharps its a sin to be fat .. =) being remind of the past is not at all a gd feeling .. anyone can stop all tis ? can i stop myself from cutting again ? its been ages since i cut .. i dun wan myself to go back to the past .. but the sadness i hab .. even if i confide to anyone, they jux take it as a remarks or wat from me .. so y shld i bother to confide anymore ? <br /> <br />izzit pms or was i actually wat i m now ? i dun like my present self .. so irritating .. sux so much .. perharps the quiet me shld cum back .. i hate myself now for being like tis .. its not even worth doing so and i dun even noe y im like tis now .. bcox of him ? or studies ? or frenx ? or purely bcox im jux being myself ? or trying to act to let pple hate me ? watever .. humans jux cant be trusted .. how long is tis sadness going to be wif me ? perharps for a lifetime .. till i die .. .: LoG oUt @ 18:41 .:. - LoNeLy - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109282566226518948?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092735618342057102004-08-17T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-17T17:40:18.343+08:00haix .. aNoThEr daE haB paSt .. did nth much todae xcept sum maths and others ba .. getting nervous for tml liaox .. oral exam tml .. dunnoe will pass a not .. haix .. if onli we can dun take tt tupid exam .. haix .. <br /> <br />yEsTeRdaE waS tHe nitE cLaSs .. hab quite a lot of fun there but oso did sum work there lahx .. den went to tour the old block .. was actually planning to go to the second floor technical there the toilet but end up they sae dun wan so din go le =( .. but nbm lahx .. better .. cox todae and tml still pple oral .. dun take risk .. hahax .. tix fri gonna go try liaox .. its either heng or suey liaox .. hahax .. <br /> <br />sUrPrisEd hE toK tO mE aFtEr tt iNcidEncE .. not much of toking but rather jux sum remarks said by him .. wasnt planning to tok to him either .. or rather was trying to avoid him as much as i could .. still no gut to face him ba .. let go finally .. jux dun wanna face him anymore .. all i can sae is im totally disappointed liaox .. but am hapi wif life now .. no more bgr trouble .. jux Os troublex .. haix .. end here den .. mood is damn low now .. haix .. .:. LoG oUt @ 17:40 .:. - fRusTraTeD - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109273561834205710?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092580110571705672004-08-15T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-15T22:28:30.570+08:00tOdaE waS a wOnDeRfuL daE maN ~ heeheex .. went to watch the last fireworks tix yr wif wend and chun hui .. oh man ~ its was so fantastic ! REALLY !! the shooting stars, the smilely face and the hearts and all .. omg man ~ so damn damn damn niceeee !!! heeheex .. den b4 the fireworks, went to play ddr .. wa .. damn damn tired and sweaty todae arx .. long long time naber like tt liaox .. hahax .. den me and wend beri funny, we 2 when walk for bout 100 steps sure will c pple we noe one .. hahax .. really .. saw lots of ex-mjr and frenx we knew .. hahax .. todae was reali fun .. had a walking marathon ( isnt like tt spell ? watever ~ ) to catch the fireworks in time .. hahax .. climb here climb there one .. damn tiring and fun man ~ hahax .. realli enjoy myself todae .. heeheex .. den same as last week, went to starbuck ( like tix spell ? wieRd ~ ) and waited for xh to cum and meet us .. hahax .. den play a lot as usual .. hahax .. the whole .. im reali kept bz .. heeheex .. =) <br /> <br />HaPpY BiRtHdAe tO aNgeLiNe !! heeheex .. birthdae ger, if u c my blog mux be hapi k ? heeheex .. cheer up worx ~ hahax .. <br /> <br />k lahx .. end here .. gotta go study liaox .. heeheex .. .:. LoG oUt @ 22:29 .:. - jUbiLaNt - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109258011057170567?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092490674497704322004-08-14T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-14T21:37:54.496+08:00tOdaE wEnt tO sEntOsa .. haB mY LaSt pErFoRMaNcE tHeRe .. a tragic indeed .. forgot lyrics .. all mess up .. haix .. last performance cannot be a memorable one liaox .. saw our ex conductor mr liew .. i was very sad .. almost cried while performing .. but still hold my tears .. once on stage u r a performer and u mux forget everything and concertrate on ur performance .. tix was wat he told us .. den after the performance, watch anderson sec perform .. xh couldnt control and started to hab tears coming down .. sad .. haix .. y did he left our choir ? miz him lots indeed .. if onli when i left choir he's still our conductor .. =( <br /> <br />nTh much happen .. jux my last performance .. hab quite a fun time wif tt tupid xh .. hahax .. joke ard, laugh and a lot more .. hmmm .. shall stop here .. nth muchx to write todae .. .:. LoG oUt @ 21:37 .:. - sAd - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109249067449770432?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092404813578429592004-08-13T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-13T21:46:53.576+08:00oMg ~ gUeSs waT ? zHaNg fEng Qi went to my skool todae ! hahax .. damn damn damn fun and thrilling siax .. although we not his ' hard-core ' fans lahx .. but horx we jux keep on shout and shout and shout lorx .. hahax .. jux a way of releasing stress i guess .. <br /> <br />since tt dae , keep on avoiding him .. jux dunnoe y , dun wanna c him so avoid .. haix .. whenever i c him , dunnoe y jux try my best to ' shan ' him either by going the other way or jux ignore him .. haix .. guess its better tix way bax .. for him and for me .. tix time rd im reali letting go lex .. i dun wan to end up being their joke .. watever .. jux tired .. naber look things on the surface onli .. cox it will naber be the truth .. end here .. .:. LoG oUt @ 21:47 .:. - diSaPpOiNtEd - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109240481357842959?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092305421639374372004-08-12T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-12T18:10:21.640+08:00tOdaE's tHe 101th post of tis second blog .. considering to change blog again .. too much memories here .. got a silence ans from him .. a no .. fine .. finally i got a definite ans .. the ger in his heart is still angela .. ok .. fine .. wait for her as long as u wan .. it doesnt concern me anymore, does it ? everything's completely over .. u r gonna be out of my life .. Does a flirt like u deserve my love ? fine .. im jux being a hinder in ur life and im finally out of ur life .. hapi ? of cox .. fine .. watever .. im jux tired of it .. in fact, tired of everything .. can i throw away my life ? if possible i would wan .. im not going to face the reality nemore .. its over .. <br /> <br />get back o lvl chi result .. cried .. cant take it .. although its a result i dun nid to study chi nemore .. its still not my expectation .. to pple i shld feel hapi .. but to me i feel insulted .. i dunnoe y .. jux feel so .. i hate myself .. assuming the things on surface may not be the ans .. perharps its the situation now .. everything's over .. im reali disappointed tis time .. reali .. .:. LoG oUt @ 18:12 .:. - FLIRT ! - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109230542163937437?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092223177214834132004-08-11T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-11T19:19:37.213+08:00I'm indeed a silly fool .. Giving myself a chance to let people laugh at me .. Why can't i just control myself and stop myself from sending him the message ? WHY ? What's the ending ? Having him avoiding me .. What's the use of that ? I'm so stupid to do that .. Why can't i just forget about everything and pretend nothing has happen before ? Why ? Since he never reply me, i will take no as his answer and i'm gonna send him this message .. Cause i don't want to hope . Hopes just keep on crash in front of me .. I can't afford it anymore .. Tommorrow's getting my 'O' level chinese result .. Pressure's getting more and more .. What will happen tommorrow ? Only the future knows .. .:. LoG oUt @ 19:19 .:. - wEiDe - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109222317721483413?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092147000776863812004-08-10T17:16:00.000+08:002004-08-10T22:10:00.776+08:00Just found out something .. He deleted away the testimonial i wrote for him when we were stead .. Disappointed .. Guess i had made the right choice .. Why must you break my heart again ? Can't they be kept as a memory ? Guess my hopes are slash .. All by you .. No one will be able to mend my heart .. You broke them too many times .. I never know you would do that .. All i can say is my heart is crying .. No one can mend it anymore .. I'm determined this time .. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109214700077686381?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1092136073456102182004-08-10T14:27:00.000+08:002004-08-10T19:07:53.456+08:00Recently miss him a lot .. Esp this few days .. Couldn't stop thinking of him .. Ain't going to ask you to watch fireworks with me anymore .. I don't want to give myself anymore hopes .. If we are fated, we will see each other that day .. If we are not .. forget about it then .. I'm really hoping that this 3 mth++ will be over soon .. I'm getting more and more sad each day .. Why can he be so happy but here I am sad over him ? I wanna get over all these things .. But i just can't bring myself to it .. The hope of patching become even more as each day past .. Why can't I just stop thinking ? Why am I so silly ? The pain in my heart is going deeper and deeper .. But will you ever know it ? Guess that will be centuries away before you know it .. Haix .. Stop here .. Heart cannot bear the pain anymore .. If only i have that .. Haix .. .:. LoG oUt @ 19:08 .:. - wEiDe - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109213607345610218?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1091983184020946972004-08-09T02:27:00.000+08:002004-08-09T00:39:44.020+08:00A mEaNiNgfuL aNd tOuChiNg sToRy .. aRe u oR m i oNe oF tHeM ? <br /> <br />Jun and Jen were a pair of young couple .. Jun was very charming and many girls couldn't help falling in love with him .. Therefore, he became quite a flirt .. As for Jen, she was an ordinary girl with average looks .. Although there were quite a number of guys chasing her, Jen only had Jun in her heart .. Although she knew that one day Jun would eventually leave her, she still continued to love him whole heartedly .. Jen loves rainy days .. She loves playing in the rain and whenever Jun wanted to join her, she'll always stop him from joining .. <br /> <br />Jun then ask her: Why don't you let me join you? <br />Jen replied: Err .. er .. Because i don't want you to fall sick .. <br />Jun then ask her again: If playing in the rain will make me fall sick, then why are you still doing it? <br /> <br />But each time Jen will always keep quiet and smile at him .. <br /> <br />Although Jun wasn't able to join her, he felt happy .. To him, as long as Jen was happy, he'll be happy as well .. :) However, nothing last long .. Jun soon fell for another girl after two months .. He even love the girl more deeply than he love Jen .. One day, while Jun and Jen were having their dinner , Jun told Jen that this would be their last dinner together .. Jen looked at him .. She knew that this was going to happen, but she choose not to ask any farther .. Jun then requested for a break up .. And Jen .. She accepted willingly .. Partly because, she knew .. Jun was just like the wind .. Never stop at any point .. That night, it was to be the last time Jun send Jen home .. Jen kept very quiet .. Although deep down she wanted to know the reasons but she choose not to ask .. <br /> <br />Just when Jen was about to step into the lift, Jun stop her .. <br /> <br />He said: Jen, I'm really sorry that I've let you down .. But I'll never forget those days when i see you playing in the rain .. Those were the happiest and most unforgottable memories i had with you .. After listening to Jun, Jen couldn't help it but cried .. Jun hugged her tightly .. <br /> <br />He said: Jen, there's one question i wanted to ask you long ago .. Why is it that everytime when you are playing in the rain, you just wouldn't allow me to accompany you? <br /> <br />Jen was stunned .. Pausing for a few seconds, Jen replied : .. Because .. Because i don't wish to let you know .. I was crying .. <br /> <br />A saD sToRy .. i like rainy daes a lot too .. hahax .. mb the secret lies there .. jux wanna sae , i really miss you a lot now .. Although my feelings for you may have fade as time pass by .. But the thought of you hasn't fade .. You were never out of my mind since the day we broke .. No doubt you don't love me anymore .. But I will continue to love you .. Cause i just don't know why .. i can't stop loving you .. To many people, I may be the stubborn lots to them .. Cause the hurts you brought into my life is enough for me to stop providing love for you .. But i just couldn't stop providing you with my love .. I also want to know the reason why I'm doing this .. But no one knows .. All along im not lying but I really do want to patch with you .. But i knew that you wouldn't want it .. So I never ask for it from you .. Cause i don't want this thing to become a burden to you .. Moreover i don't want to lose you completely .. Perharps there is another girl in your heart again .. Never mind .. I wouldn't stop caring for you when you need it .. Do you know it hurts me whenever i message you and you never try to reply me ? But i cannot ask for more .. Cause this is the most i can get from you now .. I really wish to watch fireworks with you .. But i still don't dare to ask you .. I'm scare of being reject by you .. So i choose not to ask you .. I really hope you are happy now .. Cause i don't want you to be sad .. Just wanna say I Love You .. To the only guy in my heart now .. - wEidE - .:. loG oUt @ 00:40 .:. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109198318402094697?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1091978866638985042004-08-08T14:27:00.000+08:002004-08-08T23:27:46.640+08:00faNtaStiC maN !! tHe fiRewOrKs !! muahahaha ~ my god man ~ the fireworks todae totally rox man ! hahax .. fantastic and amazingly nice ! hahax .. jy told me they watching todae's fireworks oso .. did i managed to watch wif him cox under the same sky ? dunnoe oso .. cox called jy but he naber ans fone so dunnoe they got watch todae a not .. haix .. well .. its fun too .. heeheex .. got wend, chun hui, xh and a lot other pple watch together .. so fun ! heeheex .. now i reali hope can c wif him next week .. but guess no chance lex bax .. he may even be book oreadi ~ watever .. got frenx can lex ! heeheex .. but still got the phobia .. phobia of being in a crowded place .. haix .. almost cried when they tok bout it again .. its a secret to myself .. im not gonna mention it nemore .. haix .. but still .. TODAE TOTALLY ROXXX !! heeheex .. the fireworks reali beri nice lorx .. omg man ~ next week goin to c again .. gonna book a better seat wif a better view next week .. heeheex .. but todae not bad lahx .. the firework was like jux in front of me lorx .. omg man ~ so 3D siax .. heeheex .. wonder was he watching the same fireworks wif me a not .. haix .. <br /> <br />nOt gOiN oUt tmL le bax .. needa study liaox .. no much time left .. to all those watching the ndp tml, enjoy it worx ~ heeheex .. esp. the fireworks worx ~ hahax .. cox me no chance to c max .. hahax .. thinking of him now .. wonder where's he now .. haix .. will he ever noe im thinking of him now ? will he ? haix .. watever .. even if he noe oso like tt .. haix .. k lahx .. stop here .. ain't going to write anymore .. tired liaox .. ard 5 more daes to o lvl chi results lex .. gettin more and more worried liaox .. haix .. will he wish me gd luck tt dae ? hell noes .. .:. loG oUt @ 23:29 .:. - wEidE - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109197886663898504?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1091794740055613732004-08-06T14:27:00.000+08:002004-08-06T20:19:00.056+08:00tOdaE sKooL ceLebRatE naTioNaL daE .. fUn ba .. cOx eNdiN wE aLL sTaNd uP siNg aNd pLaY .. hahax .. saw him oso .. hahax .. den before he left school i also bid him good-bye .. heeheex .. then went to watch the village wif 4g girls .. fun .. heeheex .. beri long time never watch movie liaox .. although the movie not say very nice lahx .. but overall the story line not bad lorx .. will cry if you are those who will cry easily one .. heeheex .. then went shopping around orchard lorx .. damn tiring arx .. but fun also lahx .. heeheex .. <br /> <br />din study todae ! haix .. die liaox lahx .. so mb mon and tue not going out liaox .. must study, study and study ! hMmm .. im tired again .. why can't my mind stop thinking for a while ? haix .. really feel like sleeping all day long so i no need think .. can i ? haix .. cannot lahx .. k lahx .. stop here lex .. nothing to write liaox .. count down to getting o lvl chinese results .. around 7 days more .. haix .. lOg oUt aT .:. 8.20 p.m. .:. - wEidE - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109179474005561373?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1091699868146995812004-08-05T14:27:00.000+08:002004-08-05T17:57:48.146+08:00tOdaE qUiTe haPPeNiN .. sCh's hEaRtsTriNg daE .. for all those sec 1 & 2 ipw students to set up stalls and sell thingx one .. quite fun ? but the food horx .. haix .. cannot make it arx .. hahax .. overall quite fun lahx .. went take neocardx from the npcc stall .. hahax .. beri fun .. so long me , wend and xh naber take photox liaox .. finally got chance to take one .. heeheex .. although i beri ugly in tt photo lahx .. hahax .. but horx .. memories ma .. heeheex .. den went to eat ice-stick .. so long naber eat liaox .. hahax .. den was planning to hab henna on our hand one .. den end up we buy one too draw it ourself .. so fun man ! now hands all got henna drawin liaox .. heeheex .. my neck oso got .. jw .. mUaHaHaHa ~ mad lex me .. but he will naber notice it de bax .. haix .. suan lex .. past .. <br /> <br />he dun seems to be gd recently .. hope its not wat im feeling again .. if onli i can me him laugh and smilex .. haix .. but .. reali hope he's hapi now .. k lahx .. til here .. counting down to bout 8 daes b4 we get our o lvl chi marks .. haix .. scare liaox .. =( - wEidE - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109169986814699581?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6885429.post-1091622401339041152004-08-04T14:27:00.000+08:002004-08-04T20:26:41.340+08:001sT daE oF tUitiOn .. aLL i caN saE iS oK ? dunnoe y mum keep sae he is pro in math but when i ask him a-math, he starts to stutter( or is it like tix spell ? watever ) .. hell rite ? den keep on sae how gd his method can be cox he's teaching other pple too .. big deal ? but overall ok lahx .. understand a bit .. think still can manage .. now fear for sci niax .. keep on failing .. haix .. tupid ? mb .. hope wif tix 'clever' tuition teacher of my mum's i can improve more .. <br /> <br />wHeN tO cHoiR tOdaE .. suX maN .. the vocal trainer i reali nth to c lorx .. keep on showin pple her 'there' although i admit its big ? cant stand tt sight man .. den keep on passin sacarstic remarks .. ya , i noe u r not our sch's conductor or wat , no nid so sacarstic ritex ? our sch anni u sae ' tt ridiculous moments ' .. hell lorx .. although i oso dun like tix sch beri much .. but hearin u make such remark oso feel no gd lahx .. afterall my sch lehx .. keep on act as if u r pro in el like tt .. keep on slang and watever .. big deal ? den wan scold pple scold lahx .. y mux be so sacarstic ? choir pple oso human k ? BIG FUCK ! <br /> <br />mSg hiM tOdaE .. coX xH saE hE sEeMs tO haB cRieD cox his eyes like red red like tt .. at first din reali care muchx .. cox jux dun feel like caring lorx .. but later still itchy hand go msg him ask him ok not .. guess wat ? he reply me .. surprised ? ya , i m .. cox since break, he dun reali will reply my msg one .. i oso lost my bet to xh .. haha .. hapi ? quite bax .. guess my junior all think i mad or wat ba ~ >.< newae .. still hopin can c fireworks wif him .. but dun dare to ask him .. coward ? perharps .. haix .. he may oreadi been book tt dae .. haix .. <br /> <br />tix few daes naber think muchx le .. now almost everydae occupy by tones of works .. where got time to think .. haix .. mb got think oso think of how to die ?! jux jokin .. haha .. how can die when still got him ard .. haix .. but does he care ? k lahx .. till here bax .. mux go do hw liao .. haix .. pray hard 3 mths can pass quickly .. next week gettin o lvl chi results liaox .. will i pass or ? onli god noes .. haix .. - wEiDe - <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6885429-109162240133904115?l=broken-vul.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>tRuHzhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07989610487574450564noreply@blogger.com